CHAPTER THIRTEEN
The younger girl captured the finger between her teeth. She ran a warm, wet tongue over the tip before releasing it. “Seems like the best time to me, T. What’s holding you back?” The Slayer lowered her head. “Come on, Blondie, you were right there with me.” She didn’t touch the witch, but stared soulfully into blue eyes, willing the blonde to let her continue.
It seemed the Dark Slayer might get her wish.
The brunette above her groaned.
“Hell, T, I’ve never been one for postponing things.
Laughing,
Faith was too focused on the pleasure burning through her
body to understand
“Sorry, Faith.”
“It’ll have to do, T.” Faith dropped down to lie beside
“Ah, that’s going to be difficult.”
“Why, this dump don’t have hot water?”
Faith stiffened at the witch’s words. Damn, how the hell
did I forget that? Pulling back from
The blonde watched the transformation in the other girl. All of Faith’s emotions had been closed off. The witch could still see them in the Slayer’s aura, but her physical expression contained nothing but bravado. “Faith…”
“Look, Blondie, just forget it, OK?”
The brunette relaxed slightly. “Sounding a lot like Angel, there, T. I’m here to take care of things for B. Got no plans for leaving before she’s back on her feet. But I’m not really built for heart-to-hearts.” She dropped into the desk chair. “So, you got any food in that fridge?”
“Not really. It’s too small to hold much.”
“Thanks. Been awhile since that sandwich
in
Looking down,
The Slayer jumped up from the chair and began pacing. “So, I’m stuck here for the next four hours or so, huh?”
“I’m sorry, Faith.”
“Not your problem, Blondie. Did some really stupid shit last year.” The brunette stalked from one end of the tiny room to another. “Just, I’m not real good with doing nothing. Now that I’m bouncing back from my eight month nap, got a lot of energy to burn.”
“As long as you’re going to be OK, Faith,”
Faith paused mid step and stared hard at the blonde. “Thought you said that took a lot of energy.” Seeing the witch blush, she laughed harshly. “Oh, hell, no, T. Not letting you burn yourself out just so I can run around Sunnydale.”
The fierce light in the other girl’s eyes told
Despite her continuing frustration, Faith couldn’t hold back a laugh at the mock sternness in the words. “Sure, T, let me guess…you’ll tie my ass to the bed if I do anything dumb while you’re gone.”
“Exactly, Slayer.”
“Yeah, but the view is much better in this direction,” Faith leered. Fuck, I can’t believe I let her put a stop to earlier. She watched the blonde intently, noticing the flush creeping up her neck and the darkening of her blue eyes. Sucking in a sharp breath, the Slayer spun away from temptation. “Better get going, Blondie. I’m hungry,” she rasped.
“I’ll be back,” the witch said, hurrying around the other girl. “Anything in particular you want?” The statement hung in the air.
“Go, Tara. Just go.”
Eyes wide,
***
Buffy woke with a start, images of Adam dissipating as the dreams faded. Heart pounding in remembered fear, she scanned the room for threats. The only sign of life was the sleeping witch in her arms. The clock on the wall read a little after twelve, but she wasn’t sure if that meant morning or afternoon.
Taking a deep breath to help slow her racing pulse, the
Slayer shifted slightly to relieve her stiffened muscles.
//” …when I got there, Faith was waiting for me… she said that you hadn’t really been fighting hard at the church and she thought maybe you might be sui-suicidal.”//
The words, uttered in Willowbabble, haunted the Slayer. Was Faith right? Had she been giving less than her all? Wouldn’t I know if I was suicidal? I mean, I’d have to actually decide to kill myself, right? Frustrated with her thoughts, she shifted a little too roughly.
A soft groan sounded from the sleeping redhead and vibrated through Buffy’s chest. Damn. “Shh, Will. Everything’s OK, just go back to sleep,” the blonde murmured soothingly.
Unfortunately,
Buffy tried to stifle her laughter, but failed miserably. Tadpoles? Do I even want to know, Will?
A bouncing pillow was not conducive to sleep, and
“Ooh, and that would be bad, how? I mean, you’re looking pretty good these days, Will,” the blonde teased. Her compliment ended in a grunt when a small hand smacked her shoulder. “Hey, ow.” She stuck her lip out in a pout. “Come on, Will, I was being nice. Guess I could have mentioned the bed hair and the fact you’ve been wearing those clothes for at least two days straight.”
Scowling at her friend, the witch moved away and propped
herself next to the Slayer on her elbow. Head resting in her hand,
“Yeah, getting your ass handed to you by some metal freak isn’t recommended for improving your hotness rating.” The words held a hint of humor, but the look in the Slayer’s eyes was bleak. A frown settled in and she lapsed into brooding silence.
Damn, damn, damn. I should just stop talking. Every word
out of my mouth in the last two days has hurt the people I love. Ignoring
the inner voice counseling silence,
Buffy shrugged, looking uncertain. Finally, she replied, “I did a lot of thinking this morning. About slaying, Riley, Adam…”
“You know you can tell me anything, right?”
“Yeah, Will. I know. It’s just…I don’t know. I can’t – life has sucked lately. At first, I thought it was just college and not being able to enjoy college life. Slaying always got in the way. Either I couldn’t go to a party or on a date, or I tried to do it all and I was so tired.” A wan smile crept out. “I just wanted to scream that it wasn’t fair. But it hasn’t been fair since the day I got called.”
“Why didn’t you tell me any of this? We’ve been best friends since high school, Buffy. You always told me everything: the Master, Angel, all the stuff with Faith. Why not now?”
The blonde dropped her chin to her chest. “You were having
so much fun. It was like college opened up so many doors. You weren’t the shy
little hacker in the fuzzy sweaters. You were the new, improved, confident
The redhead started to reassure the obviously upset Slayer
when the meaning of Buffy’s words sank in. Eyes widening in shock,
“I just figured I needed to find a way to fit in. It was like sophomore year all over again. You know, fitting the slaying and life into the same twenty-four hour period. But in high school, there were boundaries. I knew where I needed to be and when I needed to be there. These last few months have been so different.”
Rolling so that she lay on her stomach next to the Slayer,
“You’re not like that now.”
“No – well, sometimes. But that is so not the point, Buffy. We were talking about you, and about why the slaying is suddenly so much harder to deal with. I mean, come on. You were sixteen, saving the world every night, lying to your mother and almost everyone you knew, and pretending to be a typical underachieving high school student by day. Now, you have friends who help with the world saving; your mom is aware of your calling; and you have a boyfriend who knows and helps out. How can that be worse?” She rested her chin on the blonde’s leg. “I know there’s something else you aren’t telling me.”
“It’s nothing, Will.”
“Buffy!” The redhead knew she had to get her friend to talk.
Pushing herself up, she moved to kneel against the Slayer’s side. Grasping the
lowered chin and pulling,
“I just – I really needed you to be there with me, for me.”
“Buffy, I am here, no matter what.”
“No, you don’t understand,” the blonde cried in frustration.
“Then help me understand!”
Looking terrified, Buffy nodded jerkily. A hand feathered
through the wild red hair before closing gently on the tangled strands. Tugging
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
I can’t believe I’m doing this, Buffy thought fuzzily
as she brushed her lips over
The change in position gave the Slayer better access. Her
hands roamed up and down the other girl’s back, intermittently sliding through
the red hair. Eventually, the kisses slowed, and
“Buffy, not that I’m complaining, but what the hell is going on?”
The Slayer didn’t want to talk. Talking meant that the
redhead snuggled against her might not share her feelings. She avoided a reply
by stretching up and recapturing
“Oh, god, Will. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean –“
“Hey, Buffy, no, stop. It’s OK. It’s just, we need to talk.”
Huh? The Slayer was confused. Her body screamed in
frustration while her mind tried to process
“Earth to Buffy, you in there?”
Pouting a little, Buffy mumbled. “Not nice, Will. You get me all hot and bothered and then you want to talk.”
“A while,” Buffy responded vaguely. She groaned in despair
as
“Spill, Slayer.”
“Damn, Will. When did you get so ‘take charge?’” There was no answer, just a fiercer look from the redhead. “OK, OK. I get it. You want answers.” She paused, trying to get her scattered thoughts together. “I guess I started to notice I felt more than friendly the night we turned into our costumes. You looked so hot in that outfit, and it was all for Xander. Kinda made me jealous.”
“Really?”
“Really, Will.” Buffy dared to sneak a quick kiss.
“Buffy.” The Slayer winced at the rebuke.
“You looked so cute, how could I resist?” the blonde pleaded her case.
Sighing,
Bowing to the inevitable, the blonde reluctantly continued. “I didn’t understand then what I was feeling. There was Angel and things were already so messed up.” Buffy shrugged slightly. “It was easier to ignore or chalk it up to post battle hornies.”
“Were you ever planning on telling me?” the redhead asked quietly.
“I started to, once, after Oz left. But you were all with the setting me up with Riley deal.”
Laughing, Buffy nodded. “Yeah,
“Must have taken a siesta. I mean,
I was pretty out of it after the whole Veruca deal.”
“Why?” The Slayer asked, concerned.
“I just – because of me, you went through all of the stuff with Riley. You both got hurt because of the relationship, and Tara…I think I really did some damage yesterday.”
“With what you said?”
Nodding, the witch answered, “She’s never been really confident, and I told her I didn’t trust her. If I’d just left well enough alone...”
“No, Will. You can’t think like that.” Buffy gently caressed the witch’s face, wiping away the tears that had started to fall. “If I had told you how I felt back then, would you have been happy? Or would you have freaked that your best girl friend was fantasizing about you?”
“See? We may have lost our friendship over my feelings. The
whole Riley thing sucks, I’ll admit…” Buffy trailed off, watching
The redhead still looked upset. “I guess. I just – I don’t want anyone to get hurt, Buffy.”
“Baby, no matter what, someone is going to get hurt. If you
talk with
“I hope she’ll be OK, Buffy. I still can’t believe the things I said to her,” the witch lamented.
It was clear
Grinning at the obviously false innocence,
“No,” Buffy growled playfully. “Not interested in talking at all.”
“That’s good, then. Neither am I,” the witch said in a rough
voice. She rolled off the Slayer, ignoring the whine of protest, and settled on
the bed next to Buffy. “Don’t worry, baby, I’m not going away. I just needed a
little more room to move.” She ran a lazy hand across the blonde’s cheek before
moving with more purpose down to the top of the thin hospital blanket. Her hand
snaked beneath the covering, stopping at Buffy’s breast. “Hmm, what’s this?”
Buffy couldn’t answer. She simply arched into the fingers
pulling at her nipple. Through a haze of arousal, the Slayer heard
“I said,” came a voice by the door, “this is not generally part of the proscribed treatment for seriously injured patients.”
***
Faith picked up a book from
The Slayer made a frustrated sound. It was too much.
Returning to full health meant the regular energy of her calling ripped through
her veins. The earlier heavy petting session simply added to the problem.
Bouncing in place, Faith took yet another look around the dorm room. This time,
The hallway was empty. Cool. T musta been worried for
nothing. Hoping the layout of this dorm matched Buffy’s, Faith walked
slowly down the hall, looking for the showers. Her luck ran out. There were no
bathrooms in this part of the building. Turning around, the Slayer picked up
her pace. She couldn’t stand around in the corridor. As she hurried back toward
She smiled at Faith. “Hey. Kinda late for a shower, isn’t it?”
“Uh, yeah. Late night. Just got up,” Faith answered quietly.
“Yeah, me, too. Got class, though, so no more sleep.” The girl shrugged. “You staying with someone?”
Faith hesitated. Fuck. Shut up already so I can get back
to the room. “With a friend.” The blonde didn’t
leave, just stood there, smiling. With a sigh, the brunette continued, “
At the name, the girl smiled even more. “Hey, cool. She doesn’t usually have visitors.” She glanced at her watch and then frowned. “Damn. I really need to get to class.”
“Um, before you go, could you point me in the direction of the showers? Can’t seem to find them,” Faith dared to ask.
“Oh, sure, just head back down past
“Thanks.” Faith watched the blonde trot toward the stairs
before walking down the hall. This time, her efforts met with success. Sighing
in relief, the Slayer stepped into one of the cubicles and turned on the hot
water. She spent a few minutes just enjoying the water pounding down, relieving
the last of the lingering stiffness before starting to wash off.
After rinsing the last of the shampoo from her hair, Faith
shut off the water and roughly toweled her hair and body. She stepped into the
borrowed jeans, realizing too late that the pants were going to be a problem.
The length was almost right, but they were going to land by her ankles if she
let go of the waistband. Grumbling, she kept one hand tight to the material and
struggled into the shirt one-handed. She couldn’t get the towel wrapped back
around her head, so she settled for simply laying it over her head like a veil.
Picking up the rest of the supplies, the Slayer peered out of the shower room.
No one appeared in the hall, so she moved hurriedly back to
The first thing she noticed was a row of bags with food on the floor by the desk. But, despite the gnawing hunger that sprang to life, Faith was suddenly more interested in the witch huddled in the center of the bed, tears streaming down her face. “T, what’s wrong?”
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
The brunette actually backed away from the irate blonde, until
her back was pressed against the closed door. “What part of ‘it isn’t safe for
you to go out’ did you not understand?”
“Whoa, hold on a minute, Blondie. I just went down the hall. No one was around.” And then, in a brief flash of unaccustomed honesty, the Slayer admitted, “Well, there was this one blonde chick, but she was in a hurry to get to class.”
Looking confused, the younger girl answered, “’Cause B’s outta commission for a while and you said you needed help with Adam.”
“So, you are here to take over until Buffy’s out of the
hospital.”
“Yeah, T. I don’t get the attitude. I’m still right here, waiting to be called off the bench.” The Slayer moved from her position by the door and walked around the blonde. “Now we’ve got that all cleared up, can we eat? I’m starving.”
Smirking, Faith replied, “Didn’t think about it until I was down in the shower room.” The Slayer sat on the floor and spread several containers around her. “Better hurry, T. I wasn’t kidding when I said I was hungry. If you don’t get started, there may not be any left.”
The witch joined the brunette on the floor and took a few of her favorites. She could tell the Slayer had a question from the way the younger girl would glance up and then quickly look away again. “If I have food on my clothes, just let me know. Otherwise, ask your question.”
Surprisingly, Faith blushed. “OK. Um, I’m glad you’re not mad anymore, but mind clueing me in on what got you so heated up a few minutes ago?”
Goddess, I’m not sure either one of us is ready for where
this conversation might lead.
“Hell, no. I stayed in my crappy motel room until they called me up,” Faith bitterly responded. She paused and looked away. “Alright, Blondie, that ain’t entirely true. Me and B clicked right away; although, she never was comfortable with my attitude toward Slaying. Things were going great until my new Watcher showed up.”
“Wesley?”
“Even Wes would have been an improvement over the first one. Gwendolyn Post. She showed up and kinda separated me from everyone. Told me I was special and I didn’t need the gang’s help.” A wry smile twisted Faith’s lips. “She was saying just what I wanted to hear. Me and B got sideways of each other pretty quick, and then I found out she was hiding Angel up at the manor. Long story short, my Watcher had been fired and had really come to Sunnydale to get some magical glove. After that, it was like I said. I warmed the bench until Giles thought B needed a breather or backup.”
“Thanks for being honest with me, Faith,” the witch said.
“Ah, hell, Blondie. Don’t make a big deal out of it,” the Slayer grumbled.
Putting away the leftover food,
“You were mad ‘cause I lied to you?” If anything, Faith sounded even more confused.
“No, sweetie, it had nothing to do with you telling the truth. I was mad because you weren’t thinking of anything beyond just taking a shower. You didn’t consider what would’ve happened if someone had recognized you.”
“Sunnydale PD isn’t exactly brimming with talent, T. I would have been able to outrun them.”
Frustration snaked through the witch, but she forced herself to say calmly, “Maybe. That isn’t really the point, though. You came here to help Buffy and the rest of us defeat Adam. If you had to run from the police, or if you were sitting in a jail cell somewhere, who would be left to fight Adam?”
Finally, a glimmer of understanding lit Faith’s brown eyes. “Oh. So if something happened to me, then Plan B wouldn’t work and you don’t have a Plan C.”
“Oh, for Goddess’ sake, Faith, I don’t think of you as just
‘Plan B,’
“Sure, Blondie,” the Slayer shrugged. “Just ask Giles. That’s exactly how the Council views Slayers. We serve a purpose, for a while, and then we die and they get a new one.”
“Nothing to say,” Faith replied casually. Cocking an eyebrow at the cartons next to the blonde, she asked, “You want to save that?” She flashed a dimpled smile. “I’m pretty sure you mentioned your fridge is too small for food.”
In a distracted tone, the witch said, “Go ahead,” and scooted the food toward the Slayer. Still mulling over the last few minutes of conversation, she idly watched Faith devour the last of the food. “Faith?”
“Yeah?”
“When all this is over, we really need to talk.”
***
Both girls froze.
The blonde came to her aid, just like always. “Hey, Mom. Ah, Doctor…?” Although she was flushed, Buffy’s voice was calm, like she got caught in compromising positions every day.
“Girls, this is Doctor Gardner. He’s here to give us some
more information about Buffy’s condition.” Joyce valiantly tried to swallow her
grin.
“Hmmm, maybe not. But I’m your mother.
It’s my duty to make sure
The redhead catapulted off the bed. Still avoiding eye contact, she sat down in the chair she had vacated earlier.
“Ms. Summers, you were very lucky. The puncture wound in your side missed any vital organs. The torn muscles will be painful, but will heal in time. I am more concerned with the swelling along your spine,” the doctor said. He was a tall man with a patchy goatee. Buffy wasn’t sure if it was his dry, monotone delivery or the serious nature of the message, but she disliked him instantly. “So far, we haven’t found any damage to the spine itself, but until the swelling goes down, there is a danger of further injury.”
“But, I’m healing. This isn’t a permanent thing,” Buffy said.
“Not permanent, no. But you are looking at a lengthy recovery process. Possibly as long as six weeks. During that time, if you are making proper progress, you’ll need to see a physical therapist to strengthen the damaged muscles.”
“Six weeks?”
“It’s OK,
“I admire your optimism, Ms. Summers. It will go a long in helping the recovery process,” he nodded to Joyce. “If you have further questions, I’ll check in some time tomorrow. We’ll see about scheduling the therapy then.”
“Thank you,” the older woman murmured. She waited until the doctor had gone, closing the door behind him.
An uncomfortable silence filled the room. “Mom –“ Buffy began. She stopped when her mother raised a hand.
“Don’t, Buffy. Teasing aside, what happens between you and
The young witch giggled suddenly. “Yeah, Mrs. Summers. I’m just glad you came in when you did. We kind of got carried away.” She glanced up at Joyce with an apologetic smile. “This wasn’t really how I thought we would tell you. Besides, we,” she looked shyly at Buffy, “haven’t really had a chance to work out all the details ourselves.”
“It looks like I’ll have plenty of downtime to get used to
the new ‘us,’ though,” the Slayer commented, grasping
The novice witch grimaced. “Oh, boy. I’m so not looking forward to that conversation. I’ve got some serious apologizing to do.”
“You’ll get your chance soon,