Title: Drinkin' Me Lonely 1/1
Author: Tim
Pairing: G/S, C/S (pre)
Rating: mature
Disclaimer: they're not mine
Spoilers: some S7 references
AN: This is my songfic challenge response, enjoy.
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It started out so well. It was after Brass was shot, and he came over and said he was tired of hiding his feelings. The months afterwards were great even though we were hiding our relationship from our friends. We would go out to the movies and dinner enjoying each others company. I think Brass might have known about us, but he never said anything.

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I'm pushin' you away each time I pull up that old barstool
Drownin' you in every drop that I drink
Tellin' you to go to hell, but I'm talking to myself
'Cause you're not around to hear what I think
I'm tryin' to teach my heart to hate you
But it ain't workin' right
Now the truth is I'm only
Drinkin' me lonely tonight

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I should have seen this coming. The miniature killer was becoming your obsession, but you still showed me love, so I let it go. Considering my life, I shouldn't have been surprised that you were pushing me away, and I thought we were fine after the miniature killer shot himself, and we were for awhile.

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And Lord, it's more than just thirsty that I'm feelin' inside
'Cause these tears I've been cryin' have left me bone dry
I wish the bartender had a cure I could buy
But the truth is I'm only drinkin' me lonely tonight

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I had heard the rumblings about you leaving for a few weeks, but you never told me. We would still go out, and you would still kiss me, and even when we were sleeping in bed, you would still hold me when I would have a nightmare, so I chocked it up to office gossip until the day in the locker room when I asked if you were leaving and all you told me was that you would miss me.

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You said I'd have to choose between your love and this ol' barroom
I just laughed, but I guess you knew me best
Who cares who's right or wrong tonight my better half is gone
So, I'll just order up another
And pretend I'm alright
When the truth is I'm only
Drinkin' me lonely tonight

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I fell back into old habits after you left. I would spend my whole day at the lab because I couldn't face going back home. I think the guys knew not to mess with me, but it wasn't like they didn't have their own lives going on to have to worry about me and my self destructive behavior. Catherine was the acting supervisor, and I could see the concern on her face, but she never said or did anything to try figure out what was wrong, but then again, I don't blame her. I probably would have started one of our famous fights just to avoid talking.

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And Lord, it's more than just thirsty that I'm feelin' inside
'Cause these tears I've been cryin' have left me bone dry
I wish the bartender had a cure I could buy
But the truth is I'm only drinkin' me lonely tonight

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When I received your package, I was happy until I opened it. I liked the meaning of the cocoon, but when there was nothing else inside, I just stuck it in you office and forgot about it. And to make matters worse, Catherine lied to the team because her new friend Keppler had a plan to catch a killer. I shouldn't have been surprised because everyone I love sooner or later ends up disappointing me.

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So, I'll just order up another
And pretend I'm alright
When the truth is I'm only
Drinkin' me lonely tonight

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I was about to finish the rest of my drink when a hand stopped me. It was Catherine staring at me with concern and love in her eyes, and I was about to say something, but she put her finger on my lips.

"Come on sweetie, let's get you home, and we'll talk about it after we get some sleep," Catherine said helping me outside to her car.

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Drinkin' Me Lonely, lyrics by Chris Young and Larry Wayne Clark