Title: Wasted
Author: Tim
Pairing: C/S?
Rating: Tame?
Disclaimer: they aren't mine besides if they were Sasha and Sam would beg to
play with them. 
Spoilers: vague references to S7
AN: for the sakes of this story the S6 finale NEVER occured.
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CHAPTER 1
I can't believe that how much of my life I have wasted. Sure, at the time I
didn't think I was wasting it, but looking back on it, I realize that I haven't
really lived that much. Except for Lindsay, my life has been spent going from
man to man while trying to keep an assemblance of my
life, but recently, I have been put through the ringer.
It started after Nick and I went dancing, and I woke up naked in a hotel room
with no recollection of the prior night. I came to find out it was all about
getting to my father, and that wasn't the worst thing they did. They had
kidnapped Lindsay after creating a car accident. After getting her back, I
confronted Sam, but before we got a chance to work through things, he was shot
dead.
Things settled down after that until we solved a case involving minature crime scenes, and Grissom dropped the bomb that he
was taking a sabbatical, and I was running the team until he got back. The guys
handled it fine, even Sara. I was surprised since we haven't always gotten
along, but I respect the dedication she puts into her work, and I think we both
have grown up since she first arrived.
Mike Keppler, he was a different story. I was wary
when Ecklie said someone was coming in to fill in
while Gil was away, but as I worked with him on that first case, he seemed
alright with me. Until, he told us of a possible way to solve a cold case. The
only thing I had to do was lie to the people I love and trust the most.
Surprise, it blew up in my face. Greg and Warrick seemed to accept my
explanation while Nick was livid, and Sara was just cold. It took a little
time, but I finally got Nick back, and after Sara let me have it, we were good
too. We finally started to mesh as a team again by the time Grissom got back. I
realized that I started to develop feelings for Mike and was going to ask him
to dinner when we caught a case that he seemed to be involved in.
I took a week off after Mike sacrificed himself me which led me to think about
what to do with the rest of my life. I missed the time I spent with Warrick,
but I'm over that he is married, and I think I want that for myself, but don't
know how to get there. I went through the people I work with and there aren't
that many REAL choices.
Gil isn't a choice even if I didn't think of him as a brother. He is completely
asexual, and I would have to work too hard to get the love I want. Nick and
Greg were both out because they have the same thing on their mind most of the
time, sex. I can't see dating a cop which eliminates Sofia and Vartan, and not because they aren't attractive, but that I
don't want that late night phone call saying something bad happened. I dealt
with that with Eddie, and once is enough.
That leaves Wendy and Sara, I think from the way Wendy flirts with me she is
interested, but she comes off like the female version of Nick. Sara, now she is
an interesting woman. I haven't always looked at Sara as someone I could spend
my life with, but the passion I see in her when we work together makes me feel
that she would be my perfect mate because unlike anyone else, she wouldn't put
up with my shit.
So lately I have been asking her to breakfasts and dinners under the guise of
not wanting to be alone with Lindsay being away so much with her dancing. The more
time I spent with her, I knew that I had to tell her how I feel and hope if she
didn't feel the same, she wouldn't cut me out of her life. We got paired
together on a home invasion, and I asked her to breakfast the next morning so I
could tell her.
We were both in a goofy mood when we arrived and played rock, paper, scissors
for jobs. I won, so I decided to start upstairs while Sara was going to take a
look at the perimeter until starting on the downstairs. I pulled out my
flashlight to look around before getting started. I walked into the master
bedroom when I saw the balcony doors were open. I saw that there was something
on the floor when I heard it. I turned around just as he fired.
I heard screams and voices getting closer as I fell to the floor. I saw the
suspect rush past me when I heard Brass and Sara enter the room. I knew I had
to tell her in case I didn't make. I looked up in her eyes as I could see her
say 'Cat, hang on. help is coming.' I blinked once
letting her know I understood when I finally was able to speak.
"Sara, I love you," I said before everything went black.
CHAPTER 2
I'm not sure what is going on,
just what I can feel. I remember everything about what happened, but it is like
I'm in a deep sleep, and I think I am slowly coming out of it. I could hear
people talking to me the whole time, but at the start they all sounded to same,
and now, I can hear distinctive voices. I knew today was going to different.
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Before I opened my eyes, I felt the stiffness that my body was feeling, and
when I opened my eyes, I had to close them just as quickly. I blinked a few
times to get my eyes acclimated to the light. Through my half opened eyes, I
could see that I was in a hospital room attached to a few monitors. I could
only move one arm, so I reached over to the other and noticed that it was in a
sling. I then started to look around the room at the flowers and gifts when I
noticed there were two people sleeping in a bed as I heard the door open.
"Yeah, your partner and daughter haven't left since they brought you in.
You scared us a little when you first arrived, but if I had that waiting for me
at home, I would fight like hell too," the nurse said checking me over
while helping me sit up.
As soon as she left, I turn onto my side trying not to aggrivate
my arm. Lindsay maybe fifteen, but being wrapped up in Sara's arms, she looks
like the little girl that used to snuggle with me after a bad dream. I felt the
tears welling up knowing that I almost lost both of them.
I came to a realization watching them sleep that I have wasted the last few
years of my life on things that didn't matter. Mom, Nancy, Lindsay, the guys,
they are the ones that matter. Sara, my Sara, is someone I want in my life
because I want to show her what a family is supposed to be. I don't know how
long I was watching them when I noticed that Lindsay is waking up. I had to
giggle seeing that she still kicks her legs right before she wakes up.
"Mom," Lindsay said noticing I was looking at her. She hopped off her
bed and into mine wrapping her arms around my neck starting to cry. I just
rubbed her back telling her it was going to be okay. Lindsay's abrupt exit had
woken up Sara who just staring down at me when I heard her mumble something
about the guys.
"No, stay," I said grabbing her hand stopping her from leaving. I
don't know what to say to her right now, but I know I don't want her to leave.
I could see the tears in her eyes as I caressed her cheek with my thumb. I
smiled as she leaned into it as I brought her head down and gave her a kiss.
"See, I told you. My sister spends two weeks in a coma, and all she wants
to do when she wakes up is make out with her new girlfriend," Nancy
announced coming in causing Sara to break the kiss and turn around to avoid embarassment. I look towards the door to see the rest of
the group as I gave
After about an hour, the doctor came in and kicked the group out telling that I
still needed my rest. I realize that after everyone left that Sara snuck out,
and it was just me holding Lindsay while she slept. I had just closed my eyes
when I heard my door open. All I saw was a person holding a huge bouquet of
flowers.
"Catherine, not that many have told me that they love me, so it is going
to take a lot more than a pain in the ass sister to scare me away," Sara
said placing the flowers beside me before returning the kiss from earlier.
--Later--
I can't believe Sara convinced me to allow Lindsay to get her license, but when
she said there could be outfits, I was sold. She also said that if she wanted
to baby someone, they were options we could try. I thought she was joking until
I saw the look in her eye as I stood in the doorway watching my girls drive away wondering what is coming next.
~fin~