What Hurts the Most

What Hurts the Most

Author: Tim

Pairing: C/S(later)

Rating: PG(to start)

Spoilers: none, but early season 1

Archive: want, take, just let me know

Disclaimer: Jerry's, not mine, damn it

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CHAPTER 1

    "Sidle," I answered.

    "Sara, it's Catherine. I need a favor?" Catherine asked.

    "What do you need?"

    "Gil called me in, and I need someone to watch Lindsay,"

    "Do you want me to come over or do you want to drop her off?"

    "I'd prefer if you'd come over,"

    "Okay, I'll see you in twenty,"

    What the hell did I just do? I barely know Lindsay. I have only met her twice

and now I'm offering my new collegue to babysit her as I changed into sweatpants

and an old Harvard t-shirt. I grabbed my keys and jacket before heading for

Catherine's house.

    Luckily, I picked her up for work one night so I remember where she lives. I

rang her doorbell, and she opened the door. "Sara, thank you for doing this. I

would have called my sister, but she is working," Catherine explained as I

entered. "It's no problem, I would have probably listened to my police scanner

until I fell asleep," I said smiling. "Help yourself to anything in the fridge,

and with tomorrow being Saturday, Lindsay can stay up until eleven, but no

longer. Don't let her tell you otherwise," she explained.

    "Got it, I think I can handle one seven year old," I said smiling. "Okay, but

don't say I didn't warn you," Catherine said leaving. I guess I should look

around to acclimate myself with the place. The downstairs had a living, dining,

and bathrooms plus the kitchen. I headed upstairs to say hi to Lindsay. I knew

which door was hers by the Lindsay license plate on the door.

    I knocked on her door and heard her turn the music down before opening the

door. "Hi Sara, do you know anything about math?" Lindsay asked. "Yeah, what are

you guys up to,?" I asked as she handed me her math book. I saw they were doing

fractions, and I showed her an easy way to do them. "Do you want to watch a

movie?" she asked after finishing her homework.

    I can't believe I sat through the Spice Girls movie, but Lindsay liked it so

I endured it. I noticed that she was falling asleep so I picked her up to tuck

her in. "I need to brush my teeth first," Lindsay said showing me where the

upstairs bathroom was. "I'll meet you in your room, I have to use the bathroom

first," I said.

    I headed back for her room to tuck her in, but she had a book in her hand.

"Mom reads me a story before I go to sleep," Lindsay said handing me the book. I

noticed halfway through the book that Lindsay had fallen asleep, but I finished

the book anyway. When I woke up, I noticed Lindsay was laying on top of me, and

we were covered up.

    I must have been really comfortable because I fell back asleep. I woke up the

second time when Lindsay was getting up. "Morning Sara, sorry about the sleeping

on you. I get a little clingy when someone sleeps in my bed," Lindsay explained.

"Don't worry about it, it's been a long time since I've done this," I said. "You

have a kid too, Mom's never mentioned," Lindsay said as I ran out of the room.

    I ran to the bathroom and sat down on the toilet. I was crying into my hands

when someone knocked on the door. "Sara, it's Catherine. Are you okay?" she

asked through the door. "Yeah," I said wiping my eyes. "Can I come in?"

Catherine asked. "Sure," I said. Catherine walked in and kneeled down in front

of me. "What did Lindsay do?" she asked.

    "Oh god, I'm sorry. I probably scared her," I said. "No, she's just a worried

about you. What did she say to make you cry?" Catherine asked touching my knee.

"When I woke up with Lindsay on top of me, it reminded me of Hope," I said

wiping away more tears. "I don't mean to make you cry, but who is Hope?" she

asked.

    "Can we talk about this somewhere else?" I asked. "Sure, let me get Lindsay

situated downstairs, and we can talk in my room," Catherine said. As she left, I

thought to myself that I haven't talk about it since it happened. I just grieved

and threw myself into my work. I still can't believe it's been seven years since

I lost them.

    "I told Lindsay I would explain later if that's okay," Catherine said letting

me lean on her. She sat me down on her bed and pulled a chair up to sit in front

of me. "Take your time, I'm not going anywhere," she said. "Hope was my

daughter. She was killed in a car accident with my wife seven years ago," I said

starting to cry again.

    "Oh Sara, I'm sorry," Catherine said pulling me into a hug. She let me cry on

her shoulder for I don't know how long. She was rubbing my back which was

helping me feel better. "I'm sorry Catherine, I'm getting your blouse all wet,"

I said. "Sweetie, don't worry about it. I've had worse on my clothes," she said

wiping my face.

    "Yeah, me too," I said. "You don't have to continue, if you don't want to,"

Catherine said. "No, I want to tell you the whole story. I met Rachel in

college. She was my Psychology professor my sophomre year. We didn't start

dating until I was a junior. She was a little nervous about our age difference,

but I didn't care," I explained taking a deep breath.

    "Do you want to stop?" Catherine asked as I shook my head. "My senior year,

we discussed having kids. I told her I would carry it because I was a better

candidate. She wanted us to be married before we tried. After we were married, a

mutual friend of ours said he would like to be the donor, and I got pregnant on

the first try. When I graduated, I looked like a blimp in my gown. After Hope

was born, I took a year off before starting my job at CSI. I had a hard time

working the first time I left Hope with Rachel's sister. We had just enrolled

Hope in kindergarten the same week she and Rachel were killed," I said breaking

down in Catherine's arms again.

CHAPTER 2

After cleaning myself up, I headed back to Catherine's room. "Ready to face

Lindsay?" she asked. "Yeah, but you're not going. You worked last night and are

working tonight. You're going to bed while Lindsay and I are grabbing some

lunch," I said. "Are you sure?" Catherine asked. "Yes, now sleep," I said

sternly.

    I walked down the steps a little nervously, but I knew if Lindsay is anything

like her mom, I don't have anything to worry about. "Hi Sara, are you feeling

better?" Lindsay asked. "Yeah I am kiddo, but we'll talk about this morning

after lunch, okay," I said as Lindsay nodded. We went to Subway and stopped by

my apartment to grab some clothes for tonight.

    I left Lindsay in my living room while I headed for my bedroom. I headed back

to Lindsay and noticed she was looking at a picture of me, Rachel, and Hope.

"Hey kiddo bring that with you, it will help when we talk," I said. I put the

picture in my bag and took Lindsay's hand as we headed back to the car. Lindsay

was quiet on the way back to her house.

    We discussed school while we were eating. I didn't really want to get into

anything heavy during lunch. After throwing away the garbage, I joined Lindsay

on the couch. I told Lindsay the story I told Catherine this morning, and she

started crying. "Shh sweetie, it's okay," I said rocking her on my lap. "I can't

believe that happened to you Sara," Lindsay said wrapping her arms around my

neck.

    "I can't either kiddo, but you and your mom have made me feel better today,"

I said kissing her forehead. "You know Mom has dated women before," Lindsay said

smiling. "Really, it doesn't bother you that I'm gay," I said. "No, my friend

Amanda has two moms, and they are really nice. Sara, love is something you feel

for someone no matter what their gender," Lindsay explained.

    "You are a very understanding girl Linds. Your mom has done a done a great

job raising you," I said giving her a hug. Lindsay and I watched some TV before

I started dinner. I had Lindsay help me with the vegetables for salad while I

took care of the sauce for the pasta. "Hey doodlebug, go wake up your mom while

I finish up," I said smiling. "Doodlebug?" Lindsay questioned.

    "It was one of my nicknames for Hope. I wanted to see your reaction to it," I

said as Lindsay smiled before running up the steps. I feel better than I have in

years. I don't know whether it's the fact that I told Catherine and Lindsay what

happened or that I have finally grieved my loss, for the first time. "Mmm,

something smells good," Catherine said entering the kitchen.

    "I figured it's the least I can do for what you and Linds did for me today,"

I said smiling. "Sara, that's what friends do. I feel honored that you shared it

with me," Catherine said sitting down. "I don't mind if you call me doodlebug,"

Lindsay said whispering in my ear. "What, you guys spend one day together, and

you're already keeping secrets," Catherine said.

    "Oh my goodness Sara, that was delicious. I should keep you so nobody else

gets your cooking," Catherine said. "Why Miss Willows, are you asking me out

because I have it on good authority that I'm your type," I said winking at

Lindsay. "Lindsay Elizabeth Willows," Catherine said as Lindsay and I started to

laugh.

    "Catherine, if it helps at all. I would say yes. I have never been able to

say no to beatiful women," I said starting to pick up the dishes. "No, you relax

with Lindsay. I will clean up," Catherine said ushering us out. "Come on

doodlebug, let's watch some cartoons," I said picking up Lindsay. I noticed

Catherine gave me a look at my choice of nicknames.

    "Sara, can we go to my room? I have to get my stuff ready for when Aunt Nancy

comes," Lindsay said. After she packed her bag, we laid on her bed and listened

to the radio while I ran my fingers through her hair. I noticed Catherine

standing in the hallway smiling, but I didn't say anything because I didn't want

to embarass her. "Lindsay, your aunt's here," Catherine yelled up the stairs.

    "Sara, are you going to be here before I go to school?" Lindsay asked as

getting off the bed. "If you want to be, I would love to," I said as she hugged

my neck. I carried her down the steps, and I saw Catherine talking to a slightly

older version of herself. "Nancy, this is Sara. Sara, my sister Nancy,"

Catherine said introducing us. "Nice to meet you," we said together.

    I watched Lindsay give her mom a hug and whisper something in her ear.

Catherine gave her sister a hug, and Nancy smiled at me while whispering

something in Catherine's ear. I had a smile on my face when Catherine shut the

door. "What?" she asked. "Why do I have this feeling that both things that were

said to you were about me?" I asked smiling.

    "Miss Sidle, are you insinuating that my sister and daughter were talking

about you," Catherine said smirking. "So, that's how it's going to be. You do

realize that two can play this game," I said. "Don't sing it, bring it,"

Catherine said as I laughed at her phrase. "I see Lindsay has rubbed off on you

too," I said. "I could say the same for you. I was wondering if you needed to

stop at your place before work?" she asked.

    "No, I grabbed clothes when Lindsay and I got lunch," I said as I headed for

the bathroom to change. Catherine and I drove to work together considering I was

coming back in the morning. "Evening ladies, what's with the carpool?" Nick

asked. "I babysat Lindsay last night, and she wants me to eat breakfast with her

in the morning," I explained.

    Catherine needed to get something from her locker, so I headed for the

breakroom. "Sara, so how did the night go with the littlest Willows?" Warrick

asked smiling. "It was fun. We watched a movie, I read her a story, and woke up

being used as a bed," I said smiling.

CHAPTER 3

After Warrick and I cleared our case, I headed for the breakroom to see if

Catherine was ready to go. I found her sitting on the couch laughing with Nick.

"Hey Nick, Catherine you ready?" I asked smiling. "If you are," she said patting

Nick on the leg. I let Catherine drive home since I drove us to work. "Sara, I

don't want to upset you, but why are you calling Lindsay, doodlebug?" she asked.

    "No it's okay, As I told her, it was one of the nicknames I called Hope, and

she whispered in my ear that she didn't mind it," I explained. "When she gave me

that hug last night, she told me you were coming over for breakfast," Catherine

said. "Well that explains that, but what did Nancy say, and why was she smiling

at me saying it?" I questioned.

    Catherine just smiled at me as we pulled into the driveway. She got out of

the car and headed for the house not answering my question. "Mommy, Sara,"

Lindsay said running at us giving us both hugs. "Morning Linds," Catherine said

kissing her head. "Good morning doodlebug," I said. "Sara, can you come here a

minute?" Nancy asked from the kitchen.

    Catherine and Lindsay both shrugged their shoulders as I headed for the

kitchen. "Nice to see you again Nancy," I said. "Sara, I love my sister, and I

don't like to see her get hurt. Eddie has done a real number on her, and she is

a little gunshy about dating. I just wanted to let you know that if you hurt my

sister, there will be consequences," Nancy explained.

    "Whoa slow down, Catherine and I haven't even decided to date, so you can

save the protective sister routine," I said. "Trust me Sara, she wants to ask,

but she also wants to give you a little time after what happened yesterday

morning. And before you jump down her throat, she didn't tell me what it was,

just that it was personal," Nancy explained.

    Nancy and I were hugging when Catherine and Lindsay came in. "Sara, what did

she do?" Catherine asked. "I told Catherine that you were beautiful when I

whispered in her ear last night," Nancy said whispering in my ear. "Nothing, we

just talked, and she gave me a hug," I said winking at Nancy. After breakfast, I

took Lindsay outside.

    "Lindsay, I'm going to go. If you need help with your homework that your mom

can't do, give me a call," I said giving her a hug. I made sure Lindsay made it

back into the house before I pulled away. I can't believe that I am here barely

a month, and I have a family who seems to love me. I haven't felt like this

since meeting Rachel's family.

    When I got home, there was a message on the machine. I figure it's Lindsay

wishing me sweet dreams. I pushed the button as the message started. 'Hey Sara,

I'm in town for a few days and wanted to let you know so you weren't surprised

if you saw me' the voice said. This is exactly what I don't need especially

after yesterday morning.

    I haven't spoken to Lexie since the last time at Rachel and Hope's grave. I

took a shower and dressed for bed. When my alarm went off at three, I got

dressed to go jogging. I was glad that I slept really well considering the last

couple days. Normally when I have days that are emotional, the feelings I get

cloud my head, and I barely sleep.

    After my run and shower, I turned on the Discovery Channel to see what it's

showing. It's an episode of Mythbusters. I leave it on to see what crazy stuff

they are going to do. After it was over, I turned on the stereo and went to the

kitchen to make myself some dinner. I got dressed for work after washing the

dishes and sat down on the couch to relax before I left.

    I dropped some stuff off in my locker before heading to the breakroom to

await assignments. Warrick, Nick, and I exchanged hello nods as they came in.

They went straight for the video games which means slow night. Catherine came in

giving me a smile as she headed for the coffee pot.

    Gil came in right after her and was about to say something until the intercom

stopped him. 'Sara Sidle, you have a guest at the visitor's desk.' I patted

Grissom on the shoulder as I passed him. I think Catherine is following me to

make I'm going to be okay. As the person turned around, I saw it was Lexie, and

I lost it.

    She came running towards me as I was heading for the floor. "Sara I'm sorry,

if I would have known this was going to be your reaction. I wouldn't have come,"

Lexie said catching me. "It's not you," I said between sobs. "Um Sara, not to

make light of your feelings, but there is a blond power walking over here

looking to probably kick my ass," Lexie said. "Catherine," I said starting to

regain some composure.

    "Catherine stop, is there anyplace we can talk privately?" Lexie asked still

hugging me. Catherine led us to her office. By the time we got there, I had

regained most of my composure. "Catherine, this is my sister Lexie, Lexie, this

is Catherine," I said wiping my eyes with a kleenex.

    "I thought you said you only had a brother," Catherine said. "Boy, you really

are blond. You've seen a picture of Rachel and don't see the resemblance," I

said as I got hit with a pillow by Catherine. "Can I talk to you outside?" Lexie

asked Catherine. "Lex, don't give her the protective sister speech," I said.

    "Why not, Nancy gave you hers last night. I'll be fine," Catherine said

touching my shoulder before she left. I noticed her walls are covered with

pictures of Lindsay at various parties. That's what hurts the most, knowing that

I won't experience this with Rachel and Hope.

CHAPTER 4

I turned around when I heard the door opening, and Catherine and Lexie came

in laughing. Catherine smiled at me when our eyes met. "Sara, we ran into Gil

outside, and he said you should Lexie out to dinner, but leave your phone on,"

Catherine said. "Okay, so what are you hungry for Lex?" I asked. "Whatever, it's

the company that counts," Lexie said smiling.

    I touched Catherine's arm as I passed her. The ride to the restaurant was a

little quieter than I would have liked. "Sara, it's been seven years, so why did

you react that way when you saw me?" Lexie asked. "Yesterday morning, after

babysitting Lindsay, I woke up with her sleeping on top of me," I said smiling.

"Just like Hope, wait, who's Lindsay?" she asked.

    "Catherine's daughter, she got called into work, and her sister was busy, so

she called me," I explained. "So why haven't you asked her out already?" Lexie

asked. "She's giving me space after hearing about Rachel and Hope," I said.

"Like I said, why haven't 'you' asked her out?" she asked.

    "I'm scared," I said. "Sara, I can't tell you that nothing will happen to

Catherine or Lindsay, but this is something you can't pass up. All I can tell

you is, talk to her," Lexie said. We discussed what's been going on since I came

to Vegas through the rest of dinner. "I'm just going to get a cab and head to a

hotel so you can get back to work," she said.

    "No, I'm going to drop you off at my place, and then I go back to work," I

said. I stopped by Grissom's office to see if anybody needed help. "Hey Sara,

how was dinner?" he asked. "Good, she gave me some things to think about," I

said smiling. "Sorry, there's nothing yet, why don't you go relax," he said. I

headed for Catherine's office to see if she was busy, but she wasn't there.

    I decided to stretch out on her couch to wait for her. "Sara," Catherine said

lightly nudging me. "Hey, when you get back?" I asked sitting up. "About five

minutes ago, how long have you been here?" she asked. "Little over an hour, I

checked in with Gil when I came back, and then ended up here," I said glancing

at the clock.

    "How was dinner?" Catherine asked. "Good, Lexie, told me I should talk to

you," I said. "About what?" she asked. "I would like to have dinner with you

sometime, but I'm afraid," I said. "Of what?" she asked. "I'm scared that we'll

get close and something will happen to you and Lindsay," I said starting to well

up. "Oh sweetie," she said pulling me into a hug.

    "Maybe one of these days we can hug when it doesn't involve me crying," I

said trying to lighten the mood. "Yeah, maybe we can hug over me crying,"

Catherine said making us both laugh. "Thank you, I needed that," I said hugging

her. "How about I make us dinner before work tonight. I can get Nancy to take

Lindsay early," Catherine suggested.

    "No, well yes to dinner, but no to Lindsay. She is your daughter, and if we

start dating I want her to be a part of this," I said. "Sara, keep saying things

like that, and I'll never let you go," Catherine said. "Promise," I said. "Let's

see how dinner goes, you might have bad table manners," she said smiling.

    "Trust me Catherine, I have better uses for my fingers," I said smirking.

"Sara Sidle, that's the kind of dirty talk I don't want my daughter to hear,"

Catherine said. "Don't worry when she's around, I'll be on my best behavior, but

when it's you and me, all bets are off," I said. "I guess what they say about

the quiet ones is true," she said.

    I walked into my apartment and smelled something cooking. I headed for the

kitchen and found Lexie making breakfast. "Lex, you're a guest. You didn't have

to make me breakfast," Oh please, I know how you eat while you're working,"

Lexie said.

    "Fine, I know when I can't win, but you'll have to find your own dinner

plans," I said smiling. "So, you and Catherine are done being stupid," Lexie

said laughing. "Yeah, we decided to start out slow, so she making dinner tonight

with Lindsay as our chaperone," I said sitting down as Lexie handed me a plate.

    After breakfast, I took a shower before I laid down. I woke up to my alarm

and headed down the hall to see what Lexie was up to. I found her on the couch

reading a book. "Sleep well sis?" she asked looking up. "Yeah I did, better than

I have in a long time," I said smiling. She got off the couch and gave me a hug.

"Rachel would want you to be happy," she said into my ear.

    It took me three tries for Lexie to approve my outfit. She pulled me into

another hug before I left. I pulled into Catherine's driveway, and Lindsay came

running out. "Sara!" she yelled as I knelt down so she could hug me. "Hey

doodlebug, how was school?" I asked picking her up and heading inside.

    "It was okay, but I don't need any homework help. So you and Mom will have to

entertain yourselves," Lindsay said smiling. "I guess so," I said putting her

down. I walked into the kitchen and noticed Catherine looked ravishing. "Wow

Catherine, you look gorgeous," I said smiling. "So do you, but I had help," she

said smiling.

    "Yeah, I did too. Lexie made me change three times, and this was after she

made me breakfast this morning," I said. "Thank her for me and since I'm making

dinner, you have to find something to do," Catherine said shooing me out of the

kitchen. I decided to head upstairs to what Lindsay was up to.

CHAPTER 5

"Come in," Lindsay said as I knocked on her door. "Mom kick you out of the

kitchen. She does the same thing to me," she said. "Yeah, but that's because she

doesn't want you to hurt yourself," I said sitting on the bed beside her. "I

know. She told me that she didn't want you to help because she is cooking for

you," she said.

    "So, how do we pass the time before dinner's ready?" I asked. "We could just

sit back relax and listen to the radio," Lindsay suggested. "Sounds good to me,"

I said as Lindsay laid her head against my side. I looked around her room to see

what kinds of things she likes. I noticed that she had the picture of me,

Rachel, and Hope on her bedside table.

    I gave Lindsay a one armed hug as she noticed that I saw the picture. "I was

going to give that back the next time I saw you," Lindsay said. "You keep it. I

have plenty pictures of them," I said kissing the top of her head. "Shh, Mom's

coming act like you're sleeping," Lindsay said as I tilted my head back and

closed my eyes.

    "Oh that's just great, I have to put up with two kids. I guess I'll have to

find a way to wake you up," Catherine said. I wanted to open my eyes to see

what's coming, but I didn't. I felt Catherine's lips touch mine, and as I was

about to get into it, she pulled away. "Hey, that was about to get good," I

said.

    "Well, that's what you get for following Lindsay's plan," Catherine said.

"What did you expect me to do. You kicked me out of the kitchen, so I picked the

other Willows to bond with," I said smiling. "Well if it means anything, I am a

little jealous. Lindsay's cuddled with you twice," she said pouting.

    "I guess we'll have to schedule cuddling then," I said. "Count on it, now

let's eat," Catherine said smiling. Lindsay went ahead of us as we headed

downstairs. When I got to the table, Catherine pulled out my chair. "Thank you,"

I said sitting down. "Your welcome, I made you pasta primavera," Catherine said

putting my plate down.

    "How did you know I'm a vegetarian?" I asked. "Sara, I'm a CSI. I watch

people and notice things," Catherine said smiling. "Mom, what did you make me?"

Lindsay asked. "I made your favorite, fish sticks, french fries, and creamed

corn," Catherine said giving Lindsay her plate. Catherine finally sat down with

her own pasta primavera.

    "Oh my goodness Catherine, this is delicious," I said. Lindsay told us about

her day while we ate, while Catherine and I kept stealing glances at each other.

After dinner, Catherine and I did the dishes, after I wouldn't let her do them

by herself. "Thank you Catherine, dinner was great," I said softly kissing her

lips.

    "Your welcome Sara," Catherine said returning the kiss. We decided to relax

on the couch until Nancy picked up Lindsay. Catherine leaned against me

snuggling into my side as I wrapped my arm around her. "Comfy, isn't she Mom?"

Lindsay asked smiling. "Yeah sweetie, she is," Catherine said taking my hand.

    "Come here Linds," I said patting my lap. Lindsay was sitting on my lap when

the door was unlocked and opened. "Hey Nanc," Catherine said. "Hey Cath, what's

with the Sara sofa?" Nancy asked. "Mom was jealous because I got Sara cuddles

before she did," Lindsay said giggling. "Twice actually," I said joining in.

"Hey, sitting right here," Catherine said.

    "Ready Linds?" Nancy asked. Lindsay gave me a hug before getting off. "See

you in the morning Mom," Lindsay said giving her mom a hug and kiss. "Bye guys,"

Nancy said as she left. "I'd like to do this again," I said. "What are you doing

this weekend?" Catherine asked. "I don't know. I'll have to check my schedule,"

I said smiling.

    "I've seen this schedule of yours. It said dancing on Saturday with

Catherine," she said putting her head on my lap. "Dancing, that sounds like

fun," I said playing with her hair. "Well then, I guess it's a date," Catherine

said. As she walked me to my car, I turned around. "Can I get a goodnight kiss?"

I asked. Catherine pulled me to her and gave me the tenderest kiss.

    I got to work before Catherine, so I headed to the breakroom to wait. "Wow

Sara, you look amazing. Hot date?" Nick asked. "Yeah, I had a wonderful dinner

before work," I said smiling. I was pouring myself a cup of coffee when

Catherine walked in.

    "Well, I guess Sara wasn't the only pretty woman with a date tonight," Nick

said as I winked at Catherine. "Yes, I had a lovely dinner with a new friend,"

she said smiling. "I get it. You two had first dates and don't want to jinx

them," Nick said sitting down at the table.

    "Exactly," I said as Catherine touched my hand as she passed me. "Sara, these

came for you," Gil said handing me flowers. I read the card. 'Sara, I had a

wonderful evening, and I can't wait to do it again. C'. "I got to find something

to put these in," I said looking around.

    "I have an empty vase in my office that I'm not using. Gil, we'll be right

back," Catherine said as I followed her to her office. Once we got inside, I

gave her a kiss. "Catherine, you didn't have to get me flowers," I said smiling.

"Sara, yes I did. It has been forever that I have felt like this, and I wanted

to thank you for that," she said touching my cheek.

CHAPTER 6

It's been a month since Catherine and I have started dating. Nobody from work

knows, and that's how we like it for now. Catherine told Eddie the first time he

picked up Lindsay who is extremely ecstatic. Nancy is happy as well because she

can hang out with her friends the nights I babysit.

    I was heading back to the lab after getting the suspect in my case to

confess. I'm hoping to catch Catherine in her office, but she wasn't there. "Hey

Sara, you looking for Catherine?" Greg asked. "Yeah, I wanted to ask her

something about a case," I said. "Nobody told you," he said. "Nobody told me

what?" I asked.

    "Catherine got attacked at a crime scene. I don't know the specifics, but

she's at Desert Palms, now," Greg said. I wanted to cry, but I knew if I started

now, I might not stop. "Thanks Greg," I said running to my car. I turned the

radio up a little louder than usual to keep from thinking too much.

    I pulled into the hospital parking lot and took a couple calming breaths

before walking inside. As I entered, Nancy hugged me when she saw me come in.

"Thank god you're here Sara," she said. "What happened?" I asked. "From what I

was told there was someone still in the house that Catherine was working. She

surprised him, and he smashed her head against the wall," Nancy explained.

    "He didn't?" I asked still holding back most of my tears. "No, Nick got there

right after Catherine went down, and the police caught the guy while Nick took

care of Catherine," Nancy explained. "Am I allowed to see her?" I asked. "Yeah,

but I have to warn you that Gil is here," she said. "I don't care. Catherine is

more important than our secret," I said.

    Nancy and I got off on Catherine's floor, and when Lindsay saw me she ran

towards me. "Sara," she said jumping in my arms. "Hey doodlebug, it's going to

be okay, I promise," I said. I saw this familiar looking older woman coming

towards us. "You must be the famous Sara, I'm hearing about," she said. "I am,

but have we met?" I asked.

    "Sara, this is Catherine and I's mother, Lily," Nancy said. "It's nice to

meet you Lily, but I wish it wasn't like this," I said starting to cry. "I do

too, but from what I hear from what I hear from my girls. It's like I've known

you as long as they have," Lily said giving me a hug. I looked up and saw that

Gil was motioning me to come see him.

    "I'll be right back," I said kissing Lindsay's cheek and handing her to

Nancy. I tried to blink back the tears, but it wasn't working all that well.

"Sara, what are you doing here?" Gil asked. "Greg told me what happened so I

came to see how she is," I said seeing how long I could lie. "What was with the

family display over there?" he asked.

    "I babysit for Catherine from time to time, and since then they have started

treating me like family," I said. "Then what's with the crying?" Gil asked as I

started to get pissed off. "Follow me," I said walking into the stairwell.

"What's so important that you had to drag me out here?" he asked. "Catherine and

I have been going out for the last month, and that's the real reason why I'm

here," I explained.

    "So you two have been hiding this from us," Gil said staring to yell. "No,

this has nothing to do with work. What Catherine and I do on our own time is our

business," I said yelling back. "Hey, would you two knock it off. They're

setting Catherine up in her room," Nancy said stopping the fight before it got

worse.

    "Stay here, I'll work the case with Nick, but we will talk about this later,"

Gil said. "Can't wait," I said loaded with sarcasm. "What was that all about?"

Nancy asked. "Grissom's upset that we kept our relationship secret from him," I

said. "Whatever, let's go see that girl of yours," she said putting her arm

around me.

    We walked back into the waiting room, and Lindsay and Lily had worried looks

on their faces. "What?" I asked. "Is everything okay?" Lindsay asked. "Yeah,

let's go see your mom," I said caressing her cheek. Nancy kept her arm around me

as we walked down the hall. I put my head on her shoulder as we reached

Catherine's door.

    "Hey Lumpy," I said smiling walking over to her and kissing her. "I see

you've met Mom," Catherine said. "Yeah I did. When did I become famous?" I

asked. "The way Lindsay talks about you to her grandma makes you sound it,"

Catherine said smiling. "Hi Mommy," Lindsay said coming up beside me. "Hi

sweetie," Catherine said as I sat Lindsay in bed beside her.

    "Uncle Gil was yelling at Sara," Lindsay said as I cringed hoping to avoid

this conversation. "Sis, Mom and I will take Lindsay home, so you and Sara can

talk," Nancy said smiling at me as she picked up Lindsay. As soon as the door

shut, Catherine looked at me. "Why was Gil yelling at you?" she asked. "He asked

what I was doing here, and I tried not to tell him, but he asked why I was

crying which is when I told him we were dating," I explained.

    "That's not it is it?" Catherine asked. "No, he wants to talk to us when you

get out," I said. "Let's not worry about that now. I want spend time with my

girl," she said kissing my hand. "I love you," I said smiling. "Well that's good

because I love you too," she said as I softly kissed her lips.

    "I knew it," Greg said scaring the crap out of us. "Greg, what are you doing

here?" I asked. "I was on my way home and wanted to see how Catherine was

doing," he said smiling. "What do you mean by 'you knew it'?" I asked. "As much

as I would like to explain this, I'm tired. Sara, take Greg out to breakfast and

fill him in," Catherine said yawning.

CHAPTER 7

I gave Catherine a chaste kiss on the lips before leaving. "Let's go," I said

grabbing Greg by the arm and leading him out. As we got in the car, he had a

stupid looking smile on his face, but he still hasn't said anything.

    After arriving at the diner, Greg decided to sit across from me. The waitress

took our drink orders and said she would be back for our orders in a couple

minutes. "Are you going to ask or do you want me just to tell you?" I asked

trying to see if he was finally going to speak.

    "How long have you two been seeing each other?" he asked. I explained most of

the story, but I didn't tell him about Rachel or Hope. I probably will, but not

anytime soon. The waitress comes back with our drinks, and I got a western

omelet, and Greg decided on a short stack with home fries.

    I think he noticed the tenderness of the subject, so he changed the subject

to what's been going on at work. He was telling me funny stories about the guys

that happened before I got there. He told me this one story that Nick told him

about how Catherine ended up covered in mud. Apparently after an all day rain

storm she lost her footing getting to a scene and slid down a muddy hillside.

    "So, what was it like in Frisco?" he asked. I told him how I came to know

Grissom and about it was pretty much the same as here. He tried to get me to

tell him about any girlfriends I had, but I just said there were a couple and

left it at that. The waitress brought us the check, and Greg waved me off as I

grabbed for it.

    I gave him a kiss on the cheek as I walked him to his car when we got back to

the hospital. I stopped in the hospital gift shop before heading to Catherine's

room. I found this cute bear holding a heart that said 'Get Well Soon'. I

knocked on her door in case she was still sleeping. "Come in," I heard Catherine

say through the door. As I entered, I saw that Nick and Warrick were sitting at

her bedside.

    "Guys," I said holding the bear at my side.

    "Sara, come to give Catherine a get well present," Warrick said with the same

smile Greg had earlier.

    I felt my face get red after hearing what Warrick said, and Nick tried to

hide his smile. "Guys, leave her alone. Sara, they're just teasing. Gil told

them about us, but as you can tell they don't care," Catherine explained. Nick

and Warrick both agreed that if Catherine was happy, they were happy. They both

gave me a hug as they left.

    I gave Catherine a kiss before I gave her the bear. I told her that Greg

didn't have a problem with us either, so it was just going to be Gil having a

problem. I sat down in the chair and rested my head on her arm as she ran her

fingers through my hair. It must have been soothing because the next thing I

know Lily is waking me up.

    "Sara, come on I take you home," she said helping me up. I was pretty much

leaning on her as she led me down to her car. My next recollection was of her

waking me back up and leading me into the house. She sat me down on the bed and

took off my shoes before tucking me in.

    I woke up hearing talking in the hallway. I sat up and realized that I wasn't

at home. I figured out that Lily must have brought me to Catherine's house

because I fell asleep before I could tell her where I lived. I heard someone

knock on the door. "Come in," I said leaning against the headboard.

    "Sara," Lindsay said climbing on the bed to give me a hug. She told me that

her grandma told her I was here when she picked her up from school. She told me

that she could use my help with some of her homework. I told her to take it to

the dining room, and I would meet her there after I went to the bathroom.

    Lily handed me a cup of coffee when I came into the kitchen. I thank her for

taking care of me. She gave me a hug and thanked me for making Catherine happy.

I told her the feeling was mutual. She walked me out of the kitchen as she

headed back to the living room.

    Lindsay and I made quick work of her homework. When Lindsay went to her room

to drop off her stuff, I decided to join Lily in the living room. "Um Lily, can

you take me to the hospital so I can pick up my car?" I asked. She said it

wasn't a problem, she wanted to know if I could watch Lindsay tonight since

Nancy was working, and she had a church function. I told her it wouldn't be a

problem, but I would need to pick up some things at my place.

CHAPTER 8

"Can we stop in and say goodnight to Mommy?" Lindsay asked. Lily and I looked

at each other and told her it would be fine. I picked up Lindsay as we headed

for the car. Lindsay begged me to sit in the back seat with her while Lily

smiled.

    Lindsay and I were thumb wrestling during the ride. She beat me everytime,

but only because I was letting her. Although, I did make her work for it. I saw

Lily smiling through the rear view mirror at us a couple times while we were

playing.

    Lily walked ahead of us as we entered the hospital. When we got off on

Catherine's floor, I heard yelling coming from her room. I gave Lindsay to her

grandmother and told her to wait until I came back. I yanked open Catherine's

door and saw Gil.

    "What the hell are you doing here?" I asked getting between him and

Catherine.

    "I just came to talk, and Catherine had a problem with the subject," Gil said

smirking.

    I escorted him outside and told Lily to take Lindsay to see her mom. I told

Lindsay I would be in in a minute. I walked up to Gil and got in his face. "What

the hell do you think you're doing? She's in the hospital. If you have a

problem, you discuss it with me, not her," I said staring into his eyes.

    "What are you doing Sara, trying again? Does Catherine know you killed your

first wife and daughter?" Gil asked evilly walking away. I stood shocked at what

I just heard. I can't believe he would say that. I ran in the direction he went

hoping to catch him before I started to cry.

    I caught up with him in the stairwell. I walked up behind him and turned him

around. He started to say something, but I punched him in the face before he got

a chance to. "Thank you Sara, you are suspended pending an investigation," Gil

said wiping the blood from his mouth.

    I walked back up to Catherine's room a little in shock. Lily was waiting

outside her room when she saw me come up the hallway. "Sara, what's wrong?" she

asked wrapping me up in a hug as I started crying. She took me into the restroom

to get away from prying eyes.

    She sat me down on a toilet and handed me tissues from her purse. She asked

me what was wrong again, and I told her I was suspended for punching Gil. I knew

what her next question would be so I told her about Rachel and Hope, and what

Gil had said that caused me to hit him.

    "Sara, I'm so sorry. You do know that it wasn't your fault, right?" Lily

asked. I told that I did, but it doesn't mean what he said didn't hurt. She took

my hand, and we headed back to see Catherine. She told me that she would take

Lindsay home so we could talk.

    I waited outside until Lily brought out Lindsay. I gave her a hug and told

that I would be there shortly. I know this conversation with Catherine is

probably not going to be fun. I open up the door and put on my best fake smile

as I walk up beside her.

    "You can put that away. I'm not buying it," Catherine said taking my hand. I

sat down in the chair and told her everything that happened outside. I looked at

her as she got the biggest smile on her face. She told me not to worry about my

suspension. She would take care of it.

    "I should get going, I watching Lindsay tonight, but I'll be here in the

morning to pick you up," I said giving her a kiss. I headed for the parking lot

in a better mood. I'm thinking of calling Lexie tonight to talk.

    Arriving at my place, I grabbed a couple days worth of clothes in case

Catherine would need help with Lindsay when she come homes tomorrow. I grabbed a

water from the fridge before leaving and heading to Catherine's. Lindsay must

have been waiting for me because she ran to me as I got out of the car.

    "Sara, are you feeling better?" Lindsay asked as I grabbed my bag from the

back seat.

    "Yeah, your mom kissed me and made everything better doodlebug," I said as

she took my hand heading for the house.

    Lily noticed I was in a better mood when I came inside. She gave me a hug as

she headed out the door. Lindsay told me that her grandma called for a pizza so

I didn't have to worry about dinner. I sat down on the couch with Lindsay to

watch TV until the food got here. I am starting to wonder what Catherine meant

by taking care of it.

CHAPTER 9

Lindsay was taking her bath while I finished cleaning up after dinner. I

decided to call Lexie while I waited for Lindsay and tell her that I might be

coming for a visit considering I have time on my hands.

    After telling her what Grissom had said and my subsequent retaliation. She

couldn't believe he would throw that up in my face. She told me that Mom and Dad

would love to see me and maybe even bring the girl that stole their daughter's

heart. I still tear up when I hear them talk about me like that. I told her that

I would discuss it with Catherine and see.

    "Discuss what with Mom?" Lindsay asked coming into the room. I told Lex that

I would call her back with whatever we decided. She told me she loved me before

hanging up. I smiled at Lindsay after hanging up and told her what I was talking

about.

    "You know that I'm on Spring Break next week," she said smiling. I told her

that we would talk to her mom about it before deciding. We ended up watching a

movie before I put her to bed. I noticed halfway through she was falling asleep,

so I picked her up and tucked her in.

    I went downstairs to make sure everything was locked up and shut off before

heading to the spare room. I laid down and grabbed the book I brought over. I

was started to nod off after a couple chapters, so I marked my page and was

about to turn out the light when I heard Lindsay knocking on my door.

   "Come in," I said sitting up as Lindsay came in with her stuffed monkey.

    "Can I sleep in here? I had a bad dream," Lindsay asked. I scooted over and

patted the space beside me. I told her that I would keep the bad dreams away as

I wrapped my arm around her. I kissed the top of her head as I laid down, and

she curled up against me.

    I felt something fuzzy on my face and try to swat it away,but it just

shifted. I threw it off my face with a scream which made Lindsay shoot out of

bed. After focusing my eyes, I saw Catherine, Nancy, and Lily all laughing at me

from the hallway.

    "Look out Sara, Jojo was trying to get you," Catherine said trying to contain

her laughter. I laid back down and threw the covers over my face to hide how red

it was becoming. I heard voices moving away from the door, so I decided to get

out of bed.

    "Aah jees Catherine, make noise to tell me you're still in the room," I said

jumping as I pulled off the covers. She sat down beside me and gave me a hug and

apologized for scaring me. I told her I felt bad that I wasn't there to pick her

up, but she told me it wasn't that big of a deal.

    "So, am I still suspended?" I asked. Catherine explained that the situation

has been taken care of, and we would discuss what that meant later, but yes, I

was still suspended for hitting a superior. I told her that I wanted to go see

my family while I was off, and that she was invited if she wanted to come.

    "We'll discuss it with Lindsay and see what she wants to do since she is off

for a week too," Catherine said giving me a kiss. I informed her that Lindsay

was all for the vacation as I explained that she came in while I was talking to

Lexie. I told her that Mom and Dad wanted to meet the girl that was making their

little girl happy.

    "Sara, did Mom say yes yet?" Lindsay asked bouncing into the room. I told her

what Catherine told me, and Lindsay stuck out her bottom lip and sad puppy dog

eyes until Catherine caved and told her we could go, but not right away.

Catherine said she wanted a couple days to get back her bearings from being at

the hospital. Lindsay and I agreed and both kissed her on the cheeks before

heading downstairs for breakfast.

    Lindsay took my hand as we went down the steps. I saw that Nancy and Lily

still had smiles on their faces. "What's so funny?" I asked. They showed me that

they took a picture of me with the monkey on my face. I tried to grab it, but

Catherine got it first saying that Lexie would love to see this as she tucked it

away in her pocket.

    I decided to try Lindsay's method of getting her way by pouting which made

everybody laugh. "Sorry Sara, but that only works for the seven year olds, not

that you don't look cute, but you're not getting the picture," Catherine said

kissing my bottom lip. Lily sat down my plate in front of me and whispered

thanking me for making her family happy again.

    I smiled, and Catherine tried to find out what her Mom said, but I told it

wasn't any of her business. After breakfast, I decided to take a shower. I

grabbed my bag from the bedroom and headed for the bathroom. I heard them

laughing downstairs and smiled realizing that I finally feel at home  in Vegas.

    I got dressed and headed downstairs to find Lindsay and Catherine sitting on

the couch with huge smiles on their faces. "What?" I asked knowing they have

something planned.

    "Not telling, but you have to come with us," Lindsay said taking my hand as

we went to the car.

CHAPTER 10

I can't believe they took me to the zoo. I haven't been to one since Rachel

and I took Hope for her fourth birthday. Catherine and I held hands while I

piggy backed Lindsay. She liked the tigers the best, she said they were very

beautiful animals.

    I told Catherine that I would pack and come back so we could get a head start

on our trip. Lindsay has been bouncing off the wall with excitement. Catherine

told me that Eddie seemed happy that he wouldn't have to take care of Lindsay.

Lily said that she would take care of my mail while we were gone.

    I put my bags and headed over to Catherine's. I bought some flowers on my way

over and picked up Lindsay a couple games for the trip. I pulled in the driveway

and saw that Lindsay was waiting for me. I saw her smiling face staring at me

through the window. I grabbed the flowers and games as I headed inside.

    She gave my legs a hug as I closed the door. "Mom is freaking out upstairs.

She doesn't know what to pack. See if you can help her out," Lindsay said

pushing me towards the stairs. I handed her the games before going upstairs. I

quuietly creep up the stairs hoping to surprise her. I stood in awe looking at

the mess that she made. There were clothes thrown all over the place.

    "Want some help?" I ask seeing her jump as I scared her.

    "Shit Sara, announce yourself before saying something," Catherine said

turning around. I pouted and showed her the flowers. She came over and gave me a

kiss. She explained that she was nervous about meeting my parents. I told that I

would help her pack after we cleaned up her mess.

    I had Catherine keep Lindsay busy while I made dinner. They didn't want

anything too heavy, so I decided on my famous banana pancakes with scrambled

eggs. Catherine asked where I learned to make them. I told her they were

something that Rachel made me for our anniversary. Lindsay motioned me down and

gave me a kiss on my cheek.

    After cleaning up, Lindsay wrangled us up to watch a movie before going to

bed. Lindsay pouted when Catherine sat between my legs. She ended up laying her

head in her mom's lap while Catherine ran her fingers through her hair.

Catherine leaned back against me while I wrapped my arms around her.

    I woke up in the middle of the night having to use the bathroom. When I

passed Catherine's room, I noticed she was tossing around in her bed. I walked

into her room and touched her shoulder. "Oh Sara, can you stay in here tonight?

I can't seem to get to sleep," she said. I nodded as she scooted over. I wrapped

my arm around her waist as she cuddled closer to me.

    "Mommy, have you seen Sara? She's not in her...Oh," Lindsay said as I turned

over. We moved over so we could explain how I ended up here. She gave us both

kisses before running back to her room. Catherine gave me a kiss and thanked me

for helping her sleep. I gave her a kiss before going back to my room to get

dressed.

~~~~~~~

    The trip went surprisingly well. Catherine slept most of the way, and Lindsay

kept herself entertained with her games. I have forgotten how beautiful it was

here. I know it's only been a couple months, but Vegas will all its' neon

doesn't compare with the sights out here. I notice Lexie's car in the driveway

as I pull in.

    I gave Catherine a kiss to wake her up. She opened her eyes and noticed that

we had arrived. I got out of the car, and Lexie ran over to give me a hug.

Lindsay walked over to me and looked shyly up at Lex. "Lindsay, this is my

sister Lexie. Lex, this is Catherine's daughter Lindsay," I said introducing

them.

    "So, you're the sweetheart that's been using my sister as a pillow," Lexie

said bending down to Lindsay's level.

    "She's really comfortable," Lindsay said as we all laughed. Catherine carried

Lindsay as Lexie and I grabbed the bags before heading inside. I noticed

Catherine looking a little freaked as we walked up the porch steps. I faced her

and gave her a kiss saying it was going to okay.

    Lexie opened the door, and I did all I could to hold back my tears. I dropped

my bags and walked into my mom's arms. I felt dad hug me from behind making me

feel safe. I kissed mom on the cheek as I pulled away from the embrace. I walked

over to Catherine and take her hand.

    "Mom, Dad, this is Catherine and her daughter Lindsay," I said smiling.

Catherine walked over to Mom and gave her a hug. I saw Mom whisper something in

Catherine's ear. I'll have to find out what she said later. Dad gave her his hug

after Mom was done. Lindsay stayed attached to my leg. I picked her up and

brought her over.

    We took our bags to the rooms they had for us. I took the one room while

Catherine and Lindsay shared the other. I was putting my things away when Mom

came in. "I'm glad you found someone to love you. Rachel would want you to be

happy, and Lindsay seems to feel safe around you," she said giving me another

hug.

    Dinner was spent with Lexie and my parents telling Catherine and Lindsay

stories about me. Mom and Lexie did the dishes while Catherine, Lindsay, and I

relaxed in the den. I made Lindsay happy by being the meat in a Willows

sandwich. Catherine whispered in my ear that my mom told her that I know how to

pick em. I smiled as I heard the ever famous camera. "Sorry Sara, but we need a

newer picture to show everyone of you," Mom said.

    I was getting comfortable when my phone vibrated. I excused myself to take it

in another room. It was Warrick telling me that someone trashed my apartment. He

knew I wasn't in town, but figured I needed to know. I walked back into the den

with a shocked look on my face. "What is it Sara?" Catherine asked coming over.

    "Somebody trashed my apartment," I said as Catherine wrapped me up in a hug.

CHAPTER 11

"Sara honey, what's going on?" Mom asked. I explained the phone call, and

they asked if I had any idea who would do such a thing. I lied saying I didn't

have any ideas, but Catherine knows who I suspect. I wouldn't have thought Gil

would be capable of this, but after his recent behavior, I'm not so sure. I told

them that we could talk more in the morning, but I was getting tired. Catherine

dropped me off outside my bedroom and was about to walk away when I grabbed her

arm.

    "Cath, can you stay with me tonight?" I asked. She gave me a kiss and told me

she would be right back after she got dressed for bed. After I changed, I was

looking out the window when I felt Catherine wrap her arms around me. She kissed

my neck and whispered in my ear that it was going to be okay. Catherine spooned

in behind me as we laid down. It must have calmed me because the next thing I

know is waking up still wrapped up in Catherine's arms.

    I knew Catherine was awake when she was rubbing her nose on my shoulder.

"Morning gorgeous," she said as I turned around to kiss her. She sat up in bed,

and I laid my head in her lap. She was running her fingers through my hair when

we heard a light knocking on the door. Before we had a chance to answer, Lindsay

peeked in and bounced into the room. She climbed on the bed and sat on the other

side of her mom when Lexie popped in.

    "Hey sis, comfy?" Lexie asked with a smirk. I was about to answer, but

Lindsay beat me to the punch. She told us that breakfast was ready which made

Lindsay jump off the bed and head to the kitchen with Lex. I made Catherine

laugh when I told her that Lindsay thinks with her stomach. Catherine went to

her room to change for breakfast. I waited for her so we could go together.

    "Catherine, after breakfast there is someplace I want to take you, and only

you," I said as I explained that I wanted to take her to see Rachel and Hope.

She told me that she wanted to talk it over with Lindsay before deciding. When

we made it to the kitchen, I saw that my parents were doting over Lindsay. I

whispered in Catherine's ear that if we spend too much time here, Lindsay won't

want to leave.

    Catherine and I were about to fix our plates when we were told to sit down.

Catherine pulled out my chair when we reached the table. Lindsay started to

giggle when she saw this. I gave her a wink as I sat down. Mom gave me a hug as

she came over and sat my plate down in front of me.

    After eating, I helped Mom with the dishes while Catherine asked Lindsay

about this morning. Hopefully, she'll understand. I just don't think this is

something Lindsay should have to deal with. Plus, it will give my family time to

spoil her. I explained to Mom what I wanted to do, and she said that she would

take care of Lindsay for us.

    Lindsay came into the kitchen and took my hand as she led me outside. "Sara

it's okay, you can take Mom," she said giving me a hug. I told that my mom was

going to take care of her, but I would make it up to her when we got back. After

hugging her back, I noticed that Mom and Catherine were standing in the doorway

smiling.

    We didn't talk any on the way to the cemetary which is okay I guess

considering I'm taking my new girlfriend to visit my wife and daughter's grave.

I decided to stop off at the florist on the way. Catherine came in with me and

helped pick out the arrangement. I was getting nervous the closer we got, and I

think Catherine picked up on this as she laid her hand on my shoulder.

    "Hey princess, doodlebug," I said as we made it to the stone. I cleaned up

around it before I placed the flowers. I sat down in front as Catherine sat

behind me wrapping her arms around me. I introduced them, and then started

telling stories about them. Catherine was telling me that Hope sounded a lot

like Lindsay when she was little. I started to cry, and Catherine hugged me

tighter whispering that she was going to take care of me.

    It started to rain, and Catherine tried to get us to the car as fast as

possible, but I slowed down telling her that I met Rachel in the rain. We slowly

walked back to the car hand in hand. Catherine decided to drive home figuring my

emotions could use a rest. I started laughing the closer we got to home knowing

Mom is going to freak out and go all mom on us for being soak and wet.

    The rain had stopped by the time we pulled in the driveway. As I predicted,

Mom told us to get out of our wet clothes after catching sight of us. I was

laughing all the way down the hall as Catherine was yelling at me to stop so we

wouldn't get yelled at anymore. She gave me a kiss before heading off to her

room.

    I laid down on the bed, and when I heard the door open I pretended to be

asleep. As I hear the door close, I figure it's probably Lindsay considering

Catherine would have called me on my faking. I felt the bed dip when Lindsay

climbed up. I felt her lay against me so I wrapped my arm around her which

caused her to scream.

    I fell off the bed as Lindsay's scream scared me. The door flew open, and I

looked over the bed and saw Mom and Catherine looking concerned. I explained

what happened, and they started laughing saying it karmic while Lindsay was

scowling at me. I guess I have to make up for this too.

    "I'm sorry for scaring you sweetie," I said giving her a hug. We laid back

down as I explained to her where I took her mom this morning. I gave her a kiss

on her head as she cuddled up into me. I must have fallen asleep because I woke

up with Lindsay sleeping on top of me. I was running my fingers through her hair

when she woke up.

    I noticed that we covered up which probably means we got our picture taken.

Mom has always taken pictures of anybody caught in funny situations. I carried

Lindsay into the living room where I found her and Catherine looking through

photo albums. "Hey sleepyheads, we would have woken you up, but you looked so

cute and comfortable," Catherine said smiling.

    I was going to respond, but I just gave her a kiss as I took Lindsay into the

kitchen to make us some lunch.

CHAPTER 12

The rest of the day was great. I took Catherine and Lindsay for a walk around

the ranch. Of course, Lindsay had to ride piggy back while Catherine and I held

hands, and after dinner, Mom, Lexie, and Catherine cleaned up while Lindsay went

to her room to play. I headed outside to think.

    I remembered waking up this morning and how safe I felt. I haven't felt that

protected since Rachel. I would love to sleep in Catherine's arms tonight, but I

don't want to upset Mom and Dad. Last night was different, and it would feel

disrespectful to do it their house. I hadn't realized that someone else had come

out until Dad sat beside me.

    "What's wrong Sara?" he asked putting his arm around me. I have never been

able to hide anything from him even when Rach and I were dating. Somehow, he was

able to see through my brave facade. I laid my shoulder and explain the

situation that I was worried about. After I finished, I looked into his hazel

eyes to see if I could get a bead on what he was going to say.

    "Sara, that woman in there loves you with all her heart. Your mom and I can

see that, and Lindsay thinks you're the best thing since ice cream. I told you

at the funeral that the day you married Rachel you became our daughter and

nothing is ever going to change that. So, if Catherine makes you feel protected

than we don't have a problem with you and Catherine sharing a room," he said

kissing my head as I broke down.

    He wrapped his arms around me and let me cry. I heard the front door open,

but I didn't hear any footsteps. Dad probably gave whomever it was his famous

not right now face, and they went back inside. He wipe my tears off my face when

I stop crying and asked if it would be okay if he talked to Catherine. I didn't

have a problem with it because I knew Catherine was going to get the same talk I

got when I started dating Rachel.

    I told him to send Lindsay outside when he saw her so I could talk to her. I

did my best to clean myself without a mirror because I didn't want to have to

explain to Lindsay why I have cry face. I ran my fingers through my hair and do

one last wipe of my eyes as I heard the front door open.

    "Sara, your dad said you wanted to talk to me," Lindsay said as I picked her

up and put her on my lap. I told her how I felt last night, and in true Lindsay

fashion, she didn't have a problem with Catherine and I sleeping in the same

bed. Actually, she was glad she didn't have to share a bed with her mom. I gave

her a kiss on the head as Catherine came out with a smile on her face. Lindsay

gave her mom a hug before heading back inside.

    She came over and offered me her hand. I took her hand as she led back into

the hoose. She led me back to the bedroom. She sat up in bed and sat me between

her legs. She laid her head on my shoulder and wrapped her arms around me.

"Thank you Cath, you have no idea what this means," I said turning my head to

kiss her.

    Catherine was telling me what my dad told her, and I told her it was the same

exact speech I got. We were laughing when Lindsay popped her head in. Catherine

waved her in as I told her what Lindsay said outside. Catherine told me her plan

as Lindsay climbed on the bed.

    I moved next to Catherine so Lindsay could sit between us. Catherine gave me

a wink as we started tickling Lindsay. Lexie looked in to see what the commotion

was all about. She smiled at me when our eyes met. I gave Catherine a kiss and

told I was going to take a shower before bed.

    I think about what's going on in Vegas. I know that this is just a vacation,

and that Catherine and I are going to have to go back and figure out what to do.

I don't even know if I want live at my apartment knowing that someone violated

it. I don't know if it was random or if it was Gil screwing with me.

    I stopped off in Lindsay's room before heading to mine. Catherine must have

just tuck her in because she lifted her head to see who it was. I gave her a

kiss on the forehead and whispered sweet dreams in her ear. She whispers in my

ear that she is lucky to have a two moms, a dad, a grandma, and an aunt who love

her.

    She wrapped her arms around my neck to hug me before I left. As I opened the

bedroom door, I was fighting not to cry after hearing what Lindsay called me.

Even in the dark, Catherine saw that I was glassy-eyed. I told her what Lindsay

said when I told her good night. She pulled back the covers as I laid down

beside her.

    Catherine spooned in behind me as I snuggled up against her as close as I

could get. Catherine kissed my neck as I started to fall asleep. When Catherine

and I woke up, we found a note beside the saying that my parents and Lexie took

Lindsay out for breakfast.

    I noticed that Catherine was still sleeping so I decided to make her

breakfast in bed. I scrambled her some eggs fried some bacon, and made her some

of my famous blueberry pancakes. I grab a flower and put it on the tray as I

headed back to the room. I lightly pushed the door open with foot and found that

Catherine was still sleeping.

    I leaned down and lightly kissed her lips. She went to continue as I pulled

away. I picked up the tray and sat it in front of her. I sat down beside her and

fed her breakfast. She tried to tell me that she could feed herself, but I

wasn't deterred. After complimenting them, she asked me if there wasn't a fruit

I could make taste great in a pancake.

    She gave me a kiss thanking me for a wonderful breakfast and that it was

delicious. We must have been really into kissing that we didn't hear everybody

else come home. "Ooh, the old breakfast in bed. Sara, you really know how to

spoil your girls," Lexie said as we separated. Mom came in and smacked her for

teasing me as she grabbed the food tray.

    Lindsay came in and told us about her going out to breakfast, and Catherine

whispered something in her ear as she gave her a kiss.

CHAPTER 13

The rest of the vacation was great. The day before we left, Lexie and I took

Lindsay to the park while my parents took Catherine shopping. Catherine decided

to drive home since I drove us here. I loved being back there, but I knew I had

to get back to work and find out why my apartment was trashed.

    When we got to Vegas, Catherine asked if I wanted to stop at my place, and I

told her I didn't want to deal with the mess besides I had clean clothes to

wear. As we pulled into the driveway, I noticed there was a police car across

the street, hopefully it is just for safety purposes. Catherine took sleeping

Lindsay in the house as I started grabbing some of the bags.

    When I walked in the door, Lily and Nancy were smiling nervously. I dropped

off the bags in their owner's room as Catherine laid Lindsay down. After

Catherine and I took care of the luggage, we headed for the living room to find

out why the house was being watched.

    I sat Catherine on my lap as we sat down in the chair. They both gave us a

strange look as we all just stared at one another. I don't know whether they are

waiting for us to explain our seating arrangements or they don't know how tell

what has been going on.

    "Okay, I'll say it. Why is there a police car outside the house?" I asked

breaking the uncomfortable silence. Nancy explained that Brass thought it might

be a good idea to keep an eye on us considering Catherine and I's relationship.

    "Enough about the bad stuff, you two have to explain why you look a lot

closer," Lily said smiling. Catherine gave me a kiss before telling them all

about me taking her to see Rachel and Hope to my parents giving us their

blessing. About this time Lindsay had woken up and walked in and told her

stories.

    After we finshed talking, Catherine decided we should go out to dinner. She

whispered in my ear she wanted me to wear my tight purple silk shirt. I headed

back to my room to find it. As I was looking for it, I came across a long felt

box. I opened it up and saw that it was a locket.

    "Go ahead open it," Catherine said standing in the doorway with a sweet smile

on her face. I opened it and on the one side was Rachel and Hope and on the

other was Catherine and Lindsay. I think Catherine saw that I was about to cry

because she came over and hugged me and explained that it was my parents idea.

She said they told her that it was good to see me happy again.

    "Mommy, is Sara okay?" Lindsay asked coming in. I showed her the present her

mom and my parents got me. She gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek before we

headed back to the living room. Lily and Nancy were smiling as we entered.

Catherine must have told them what I was going to find.

    After dinner, Nancy decided she was going home. Catherine told Lily she could

stay since we were going to sharing her room. She gave us a look, so Catherine

explained that we started sleeping in the bed after I found out my apartment.

She laughed telling us she was teasing. She said that we were two grown women

who have feelings for each other so it's fine with her.

    I grabbed my pajamas and headed for the bathroom to grab a shower.

Afterwards, I was waiting for Catherine to get done with hers because there was

something I needed to ask her. I was starting to nod off when Catherine came in

these dark purple pajamas that hugged just the right places. "Catherine, I want

to switch positions tonight. I want to wrap my arms around you," I said as she

came over and gave me a kiss.

    When I woke up the next morning, I found that my hand had made its way inside

her pajama top. I knew there was no way of getting it out without waking

Catherine up. I tried to fall back asleep, but considering I'm inches away from

my girlfriend's breasts, I can't. I feel Catherine stir so I decide to fake

sleeping.

    "You know Sara, maybe you should watch Lindsay more. She is better at faking

being asleep, you are just bad at it. Plus, your hand is inside my top,"

Catherine said giving my hand a kiss as she pulled it out. She rolled over and

gave me a kiss as Lindsay knocked on the door.

    "Is it safe to come in?" she asked through the door. We sat up in bed as

Catherine allowed her to come in. She climbed up and snuggled up to her mom. I

whispered in Catherine's ear that we should get Lindsay back for her comment

earlier. I got out of bed to go the bathroom. When I got back, I gave Catherine

a wink.

    I walked up to Lindsay like I was going to give her a kiss, but I started

tickling her. She tried to get Catherine to help her, but she ended up tickling

her too. I kissed her on the forehead as we stopped and sat her between us. I

was smiling thinking about what Catherine said earlier about my parents being

happy that I'm happy.

    "Sara, are you moving in with us?" Lindsay asked as I forgot how to breathe.

CHAPTER 14

I look dowm at Lindsay's loving eyes not really knowing how to answer her

question. I care about them both so much, but we haven't know each other all

that long. Although, we have shared some rather serious emotional issues. "I

don't know sweetie, we'll have to see," I said smiling.

    "Okay, I was just asking," Lindsay said smiling up at me. I gave her a hug

and kissed the top of her head when Lily knocked on the door. She informed us

that breakfast was ready if anyone was hungry. Before I got a chance to get up,

Lindsay climbed over me and ran down the hall.

    Catherine came over to other side of the bed and offered me her hand. We

walked downstairs, and Lindsay was smiling again when she saw us come into the

kitchen. After breakfast, I helped Lily with the dishes as we talked about

recent developments.

    The rest of the day went fast which is not surprising considering Catherine

and I were going back to work for the first time in a week. I still don't know

who's going to be running the shift considering Cath got Grissom transferred.

I'm figuring it's probably someone I'll butt heads since I been having a run of

good things happening.

    After dropping Lily and Lindsay off at Nancy's, Catherine and I headed for

the lab. As nervous as I am you would think it's my first day. When Catherine

parked the car, she took hold of my hand and whispered in my ear that everything

was going to be alright.

    "Meet me in the break room," Catherine said giving me a kiss before going

into her office. I walked down the hallway and turned into the room to find

Nick, Greg, and Warrick all smiling at me. One by one they all came up to give

me a hug. I headed for the coffee maker to pour Catherine and I a cup when I

heard the door open.

    I figure this is the new boss considering they're the only one not here

besides Catherine. I turn around and drop my cup of coffee. Catherine is

standing there with assignment slips in her hands. "Shit," I said as my coffee

mug smashes on the floor.

    "Sorry Sara, I thought it would be a nice surprise," Catherine said smiling,

trying not to laugh. I clean up the pieces of cup and wipe up the coffee while

Catherine gave Warrick and Nick their assignment. Catherine came over and handed

me the assignment that she wanted Greg and I to do.

    I told Greg I would meet him at the car. I walked over to Catherine and gave

her a kiss on the cheek. I whispered in her that I was happy for her and that we

would celebrate when we picked Lindsay up from school. I had Greg drive to the

scene while I called for flowers for Catherine. I was having a hard time with

the order because Greg was making kissy noises while I ordered Catherine's

favorite.

    When we got to the scene, Brass was waiting for us. He said that I looked

refreshed and happy. I smiled while he explained what the situation was. When we

got inside, I watched Greg as he got started. The guys did a good job training

him because he seems to know what he is doing.

    After getting back to the lab, I told Greg to get started while I explained

to Catherine what was going on. He made a crack about him solving the case

before I got back. I slapped him on the arm as I headed for Catherine's office.

I knocked on her door and opened it when she told me to enter. I entered the

room and saw that she got my flowers.

    I filled her in on the case and how Greg worked the scene. "I'm glad Greg is

getting along so well. Now I won't have to bring in somebody new because I don't

think we'd be a lucky as the last time," Catherine said smiling giving me a

wink. I turned my head and blinked back the tears that wanted to fall after

hearing what she said.

    I ran into Warrick on my way back to Greg. He told me that my apartment was

cleared, but that it was still an open case because they didn't find any

evidence as to who did it. As I was walked away, I thought that I'm not

surprised that they didn't find anything if it was Grissom that did it.

    I walked into the layout room where Greg had separated everything. I don't

think he heard me come in because I scared him when I touched his shoulder. He

informed that he took the prints to Jacqui and dropped off the DNA with the

pretty new tech. "Did you ask her out yet?" I asked teasingly.

    "Yes, but apparently she is more your type than mine," he said giving me a

wink. I punched him in the arm for his comment, and he apologized saying he was

just kidding. Catherine came in observing our interaction and asked what I

punched him for. Greg explained that he was teasing me about Julia, the new DNA

tech.

    With Catherine's help, Greg and I closed our case before the end of shift. I

dropped Catherine off and told her that I would be back after I grabbed a few

things from my place. She gave me a kiss before I pulled away. I told I should

be back in about an hour.

    I pulled up to my building and saw the cruiser sitting across the street. I

unlocked my door and headed inside. I looked around and the guys must have

cleaned up the best they could because the place was cleaned up, but there were

things a little out of place. I smiled when I saw the post-it that had a smiley

face on a picture of me with Rachel and Hope.

    I grabbed a few more changes of clothes and my mail before heading back to

Catherine's. I pulled into Catherine's driveway, and Lindsay came running out

giving me a hug. I grabbed my bag before picking her up and heading in the

house. Catherine greeted me with a kiss while Lindsay was making gagging noises

in my ear.

    I gave Lindsay a hug and kiss before Catherine took her to school. I decided

to sort through my mail to see what I needed to keep. I found an envelope that

didn't have a return address, but was addressed to me. I felt the envelope, and

it seemed only to be a letter. I opened it and unfolded the paper and all it

said was 'Soon'.

CHAPTER 15

I dropped the letter and pulled out my phone and called for a CSI to come to

Catherine's house. I went to the kitchen to grab a glass of water to help with

my case of dry mouth. I took small sips trying to calm my nerves.

    I was sitting at the kitchen table when I heard someone knocking on the door.

I went to the door and looked through the peephole. I saw that it was Sofia from

days. I opened the door and showed her to the table. I explained all I did when

I opened the letter.

    As Sofia was bagging the letter and envelope, Catherine came in with her gun

out. "Honey, it's okay. I just got some mail," I said getting up from the couch

and wrapping my arms around her. Sofia told us that she would leave a copy of

the report on Catherine's desk with her findings.

    Catherine was getting dressed for bed while I grabbed a shower. I let the

warm water melt the days stress away. I knew as long as I wasn't alone, I would

be safe from whoever was stalking me. I got dressed and headed for Catherine's

room. I opened the door and she was looking at me with this stupid smile on her

face.

    "What?" I asked climbing into bed. She just smiled as she spooned against me

wrapping her arms around me. I kissed her hand before I closed my eyes. When the

alarm went off, I found that Catherine's hand had ended up on my breast. I tried

to turn off the alarm, but her grip on it was a little firm.

    "Are you going to shut it off or do you like the constant beeping?" Catherine

asked. I touched her hand showing her why I couldn't exactly turn over. She gave

it a light caress before letting go as I finally shut off the alarm. I turned

over and gave Catherine a kiss, and then whispered in her ear that I needed to

take another shower to cool off.

    "Sara, I don't want you to feel pressured, but I would love to make to love

to you," Catherine said giving me a passionate kiss.

    "Catherine, you have no idea how much I want to, but I wanted to wait until

you were ready," I said kissing her back.

    Catherine and I got dressed and headed for Lindsay's school. I held her from

behind leaning against the car as we waited. She came walking out with a tired

look on her face until she saw us. She smiled as she ran up to her Mom and I.

    Before going home, we grabbed some ice cream and headed for the park.

Catherine laid her head on my shoulder as we watched Lindsay play. Catherine was

rubbing her thumb on the top of my hand when Lindsay came over to sit beside me.

I took both my girls' hands as we headed back to the car.

    When we got home, I helped Lindsay with her homework while Catherine started

some laundry. Catherine gave us both milk as I was explaining the story problems

to her. I remembered back when I was in school, that I hated story problems too,

but now they are a little easier. After we finished, Lindsay headed to her room

while I decided to join Catherine in the living room.

    I saw that she was looking through my pile of mail. She seemed to be sorting

it. I walked in and sat down on the couch when she handed me a letter from my

parents. I opened it up and found two pictures of me, Catherine, Lindsay, Mom,

Dad, and Lexie. I opened up the letter and it read:

Sara,

    I know I should have gotten these pictures developed while you were here, but

then I wouldn't have been able to write you. Here are two copies of all of us.

One for you and one for that beautiful woman of yours. Please feel free to visit

whenever you like.

Love always,

Mom

    I smile as I hand Catherine the letter. She turns to me and gives me a kiss.

We were so into kissing one another that we didn't here Lindsay come back into

the room. I heard her humming the kissing in the tree song which made me laugh

while I was still kissing Catherine.

    "What's so funny, am I doing it wrong?" Catherine asked as I burst into

laughter. She then straddled my legs and started tickling me. I was trying to

push her off, but since I was sitting on one of my legs, I didn't have enough

leverage to push her off.

    I decided to make dinner for Catherine as my way of congratulating her for

the promotion. I even got Lindsay to help by keeping her Mom busy while I was

cooking. I made a nice vegetable lasagna for Catherine and I, but I made Lindsay

a small regular lasagna. I know she likes to eat some vegetables, but there were

a couple that she didn't in mine.

    After cleaning up, Catherine and I relaxed on the couch while Lindsay got her

stuff ready for tonight. She told me that she wanted me to be careful at the

crime scenes in case my stalker was lurking around. I kissed her hand and told

her that I was always careful and looked around at all my scenes.

    When we got to work, I headed off to grab a cup of coffee while Catherine

went to her office for tonight's agenda. There were only two cases so Greg

thought it would be funny to make it boys against girls. As the guys left,

Catherine handed me the file Sofia left on her desk.

CHAPTER 16

Sara's POV

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    Last night sucked. First, there was no DNA on the envelope or letter, and

then Catherine and I's case was a slam dunk. I think she can see the frustration

on my face as we're heading home. She is trying to get me to talk, but I'm not

really in the mood. As soon as we got home, I headed for my room.

    I heard Lindsay asking her mom if I was okay. She told that last night was a

little hard on me. I kicked off my shoes and climbed into bed. I really want to

let Catherine help, but with everything going on, I just want a little space.

    I was close to sleeping when I heard the cocking of a gun. I turned towards

the noise, and then everything went black. As I come to, I notice that one of my

eyes is swollen shut. I try to clear the cobwebs when I hear a voice. "Hello

Sara," Grissom said angrily.

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Cath's POV

~~~~~~~~~~

    I can't believe she won't let me in. I thought we had worked through her

doing things by herself phase. I told Lindsay everything will be fine by the

time we pick her up. I notice that the front door is open when I pull into the

driveway.

    I head over to check on the officer and notice him knocked out in his car. I

called in for backup as I pulled out my weapon before heading into the house. I

honestly don't care about policy as I begin to look around the house. There

seems to be nothing out of place in the living room or kitchen. I headed

upstairs and noticed Sara's door was open.

    I open the door with my foot and see the blood on the pillow. I hear the

calvary enter the house as I try to swallow back the tears that want to come

out. "Upstairs," I said loud enough to get them up the stairs. When Warrick

walked up to me, I lost it.

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Sara's POV

~~~~~~~~~~

    I hate tasting my own blood. I been listening to Grissom's ramblings about

how I ruined his life followed by a couple smacks. He's trying to play with my

past fears, and all I can think of is how shitty I treated Catherine this

morning. For some reason, I find myself smiling. "What's so funny?" Grissom

asks.

    "Just picturing Catherine kicking your ass," I said laughing. I don't think

he found it funny because I got backhanded. Then he started in on that I was not

going to be found until they found the body. That sort of took the wind out of

my sales.

    He ended going back to his rantings about how he thought everything was going

to be fine when I came here. Apparently, he was interested in going out with me

knowing that I have dated guys before, but he was waiting for me to get

acclimated to Vegas before asking.

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Cath's POV

~~~~~~~~~~

    Warrick took me over to my sister's while the others looked for evidence. Mom

is sitting with me in bed trying to get me to fall asleep. I can't believe I

left her alone this morning. I should have forced the issue, but I didn't want

upset her more.

    "Lindsay!" I yelled realizing I don't know what I'm going to tell her. Nancy

and Mom came running in trying to find out what the problem was. I tried to

explain that I didn't know how I was going to Lindsay. Nancy said that we would

handle it together.

    Mom got me back to sleep by singing to me like she did when I was younger. I

woke up when I heard the bedroom door open. I saw the look of worry on Lindsay's

face when she came in. I know I have to stay strong for her so I pat the bed

beside me. "Linds, there is something I have to tell you about Sara," I said.

~~~~~~~~~~

Sara's POV

~~~~~~~~~~

    I don't know how many times I've passed out. I wish he would just put me out

of my misery instead I have to listen to his constant rantings as I feel

something vibrating against my thigh. I look down and find that I still have my

cell phone.

    "I hope you told Catherine and Lindsay how you felt about them the last time

you saw them because that is the last thing you will ever say to them," Grissom

spewed as I let loose with a nice 'Fuck off' which of course earned me another

smack.

    I started laughing again, and he asked me what was humorous about this

situation. "Gil, I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but I don't think you have

the follow through to finish this," I said spitting in his face. He wiped his

face and pulled out his gun. I thought to myself 'I will always love you

Catherine' as I closed my eyes.

    "Freeze"

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Cath's POV

~~~~~~~~~~

    Lindsay had the same exact response I had. I rocked her telling her that it

was going to be okay. I finally got her calmed down enough that she was asleep.

I saw Mom and Nancy looking at us in the doorway with sad expressions on their

faces.

    I heard Nick talking to Warrick about finding Sara. I hopped out of bed

waking up Lindsay, but I ran out to find out what's up. Apparently, Sara still

has her phone on her and they traced its whereabouts. I saw Lindsay come out of

the room just as Nick said that.

    "Mommy, bring Sara home," she said as I walked up and gave her a hug. On the

way, Brass told me that I waiting in the car. I proceded to tell him to 'Fuck

off'. He was going to have to shoot me to keep me out of there.

    "Freeze," Brass said as Gil raised his gun to Sara's head.

CHAPTER 17

Sara's POV

~~~~~~~~~~

    I can barely recognize any of the voices with my head pounding the way it is.

Although, I can hear Grissom telling Brass to leave before he paints the walls

with my brain matter. I hear the people getting closer behind me and decide I

have to do something.

    I open my eyes as much as I can and see that Gil is not paying attention to

me. I know this is probably going to hurt, but I need to help out the situation.

I keep watching Grissom and notice that his mental stabilty is getting worse, so

I throw all of my weight to one side and tip the chair over.

    I hear a pop and couple gun shots as I land on the floor. The next thing I

hear are people running towards me. I feel myself being place back upright and

untied. Catherine comes around to the front of the chair and gives me a light

kiss on the lips. "Catherine, you look like shit," I said smiling, I think.

    "Well, we all can't be as beautiful as you," she says giving me another kiss.

The pain of my shoulder is excruciating as they untie my arms. Catherine takes

off her jacket and makes a make shift sling until the EMTs get here. I want to

get up, but Catherine tells me to sit still.

    I can hear the other guys talking, but I think they are giving Catherine and

I are space. I notice that Catherine is starting to cry, and I cup her chin with

my good hand and tell her it is going to be okay. I hear the sirens getting

closer and figure my ride is here.

    "Catherine, call Lindsay and tell her to get your mom or Nancy to bring her

to the hospital," I said as she pulled out her phone. One of the paramedics came

up and saw that my shoulder was separated, and to distract me Catherine gave me

a kiss as he popped it back in place.

    His partner wheeled over the stretcher and they help me onto it. i told them

that Catherine was coming with me in the ambulance. I saw her talking to the

guys while they placed me inside. She gave Brass a hug before running to join

me. I think everything has finally gotten to me because I was asleep when we

arrived at the hospital.

    I heard them tell Catherine to stay in the waiting room until I'm put in my

own room. I don't exactly want her to leave my side, but I know she can't be

with me while I'm being poked, prodded, and x-rayed.

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Cath's POV

~~~~~~~~~~

    I can't believe I had to shoot Gil. He was the one who helped me get this

job. But then again, this Gil wasn't the same man I knew. I am still in shock

that Sara threw herself onto the floor to take her out Gil's line of fire which

gave Brass and I the opportunity to take him out.

    "Mommy," Lindsay yelled as I looked up to see that Mom and Nancy brought her.

I kneeled on the ground and hug Lindsay tightly. I pick her and head over

towards my family.

    "How is she?" Mom asked as I explained the extent of her injuries. I was

telling them what happened when the doctor came out and asked for Sara's family.

Before I got a chance to answer, Mom stood up and said that we were Sara's

family. I picked up Lindsay as we headed for Sara's room.

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Sara's POV

~~~~~~~~~~

    I've been told besides my separated shoulder, the only other major injury is

a concussion. I am thrilled when they tell me that I should only have to spend

one night here. I tell them I will only stay as long as Catherine can stay with

me. They tell me it is against policy, but if it will make me more comfortable

they'll allow it.

    I see the door opening and smile when I see Catherine holding Lindsay, and

Lily and Nancy following behind them. I can't believe my luck, my home life

growing up suck, but now I have two families that love me as one of their own. I

see Lindsay looking like she is going to start to cry. "Lindsay sweetie, it's

okay. I'm fine," I said patting the space in bed beside me.

    Catherine puts her in bed with me, and I wrap my arm around her as Catherine

gives me a kiss. Lily and Nancy come over and give me hugs. I decide to tell

them that I would like to move in with Catherine, but I would keep my apartment

until my lease runs out in case Catherine and I want to be alone.

    Catherine told me I had to take a week off plus talk to the lab shrink. I was

going to protest until she whispered in my ear that she would make it up to me.

The nurse came in and told us that visiting hours were over, and Catherine was

about to leave when the nurse told her she could stay.

    After they left, I scooted over in bed and had Catherine join me. The day

must have finally gotten to her because she fell asleep as soon as she laid her

head on my shoulder. I kissed the top of her head as I turned off the light

before falling asleep myself.

CHAPTER 18

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1 year later

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    I can't believe the year that Catherine and I have had. I moved in with her

and Lindsay shortly after my kidnapping. We got married six months ago, and I

found out today that the procedure worked and that Catherine and I are going to

be parents.

    Lindsay wouldn't let me tell her mom without her being there. I know

Catherine wouldn't like that I brought her, but after the news I tell her. I

don't think it will be a problem. When we are passing Greg's lab, he knocks on

the window to get our attention.

    "You know Catherine is going to kill you that you brought Lindsay to the

lab," he said. I whispered in his my good news and if he leaked it I would make

his life a living hell. He informed me that Catherine was at a scene right now,

but should be back shortly.

    I held Lindsay's hand as we headed to Catherine's office. We ended up sitting

down on the couch as we waited for her to get back. Lindsay said she was getting

tired, so I had her lay her head in my lap as she stretched out. I covered her

with my coat in case she got cold.

    I must have fallen asleep because I woke up to Catherine giving me a kiss. I

opened my eyes to a slightly filthy version of my wife. "What the hell happened

to you?" I asked trying not to laugh. She smacked me in the arm before telling

me she took a header into a muddy hillside.

    "I'm guessing you have big news if you broke the rule about bringing  Lindsay

to the lab," she said as I nudged Lindsay awake. Lindsay sat in her mom's lap as

I told Catherine that we were going to have a baby. Catherine gave me another

kiss before telling me to head to the break room.

    By the time we get there, the guys are sitting around the table smiling. I

lead Lindsay to the couch as we await Catherine's appearence. Lindsay starts to

fall asleep again, and I realize what a bad idea bringing her might have been. I

smile when I see Catherine come back in looking cleaner.

    "Sara and I want you guys to be the first to know that we are going to be

parents," Catherine announced as everyone turned smiling at me. Shortly after my

kidnapping, I told the guys about Rachel and Hope so they know what a big deal

this is. They tell us that if we need anything at any time do not hesitate to

call.

    The guys gave us their congratulations as Catherine carried Lindsay out to

the car for me. I gave her a kiss before I drove away. On the way home, I

realize I need to call my parents and tell them the good news. Shortly after

getting married, I discussed with them my want to have another baby. They told

me they would support me in whatever I chose.

    When I got home, I carried Lindsay to the house, but when I got to the door

it opened. I walk inside to find my parents, Lexie, and Nancy with Lily standing

by the door. "What are you guys doing here?" I asked feeling I have been had.

Lily took Lindsay from me as Nancy came to me.

    She informed that Catherine had told my family about the appointment, and

they came to Vegas to give me whatever support I needed. I asked if they knew

the outcome of my test, but Nancy told me they didn't. I headed for the kitchen

to get a glass of water to wait until Lily came back downstairs.

    "Sara, are you okay?" Lexie asked giving me a hug. I nodded and gave her a

kiss on the cheek as I saw Lily come back in the room. I wrapped my arm around

her shoulder as we walked into the living room. I sat down on the couch between

Mom and Lex while everyone started to stare at me.

    "I know Catherine isn't here, but we would like you guys to know that I am

pregnant," I said as Lex gives me another hug. Mom and Dad both gave me a hug

and kiss as I headed over to see Lily and Nancy. They gave me a hug together

offering me their congratulations.

    We spent a couple hours talking, and I found out that my parents were going

to stay in town and help out however they can. Lex said she would come whenever

work got slow, but would definitely be back for the birth. I started to yawn,

and Mom and Lily decided that it was time for them to go.

    After locking up, I took a shower. I was heading to our bedroom when

Lindsay's door opened and asked if she could sleep with me. She took my hand,

and I led her inside. As I climb in bed, Lindsay snuggled up against me as I

smiled realizing that I now have something that I thought I would ever find

again.

FINIS~